~In James World~

2005-11-13T23:49:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went to attended a friend birthday party with Alex & gang..... then after that we headed down to Topz.... and while we're driving along some pubs at Tangong Pagar, my friend Rongyao shouted, "Hey, look! That's Jess!!!!" Everyone inside the car got "VERY EXCITED"
(Including me) and trying to look out for her!!!! Hahahaa..... actually she is my ex-gf of 7 FUCKING LONG YEARS!!!! Then Alex purposely make an U-turn(for me) and we went pulled over at the roadside. Don't know why, although we still chat over the phone or through msn but I still feel abit awkward as I step out of the car and walked towards her..... maybe it's because,
this is only the 2nd time that we bumped into each other since we broke off 3 years ago...... Hahahaaa.... it was like a "sudden gathering" from out of nowhere for everyone of us. Cause' all of us spend grew up, chilling out, party, fool around together when we're still young...... and no one even contact her back after we broke off. We left after a short conversation. Sighs.... while inside the car, many memories suddendly came alive from my dead brain...... resulting in many "What if", as those haunting memories been played back once again in my mind..... been thinking, many of us have been together for many many years since we're young and even got married...... but how come me & her can't be like the rest? Sighs....... maybe fate is playing with both of us! :(

Anyway, been happily drinking the night away after we reached Topz..... and perhaps Weiwei
thought that "something is wrong" with me after the "gathering"...... and she even volunteer to accompany drink me for the whole night! Hahahaa..... Aunty, I'm really gladful leh..... but hor!!!! I'm drinking so much because I'm HAPPY, OK??? & not because like what you guys have thought leh!!!! Nabei...... in the end, happy until I kissed a GAY lor!!!! Arrrgghhhh..... Pui!!!! Grace even took some pictures of me with that FUCKING GAY kissing together!!!!! Idiot...... don't think I will post those pictures up cause' it's too DISGUSTING!!!! Nitezzz~

~The Hardest Thing To Go Though Is Not The Results Of Disappointment..... Or The Pain of Losing Something...... It Is But The Agony Of Not Knowing Or Not Having An Answer As The Hardest~

2005-11-10T20:48:00.000-08:00

Arrrgghhh........ I'm suffering from hangover AGAIN!!!!! Yesterday meet up with Alex & Grace at a pub called, "Topz". At first we just relax and had a few drinks..... but after awhile, we decided to "try out" some cocktails! The 1st glass is called "Frustration". Hahahaaa..... Don't know how it got it's name, but you sure WON'T GET FRUSTRATED after drinking it! 2nd Glass is called "Waterfall". Hmmm..... this drink is my FAVOURITE!!!! Used to have this drink almost every single day during my working time at a "nightspot" Lastly, it's a drink that I detest most and it's called "Graveyard"!!!! Yucks!!!! After drowning that stupib drink..... I straight away rushed to the toilet and vomit liao...... been so long since I "Merlion" lor..... and imagine that I still continue to vomit even when I'm lying on my bed!!!!

After Topz, Baby called and I went down to Boat Quay to find her. Didn't even realised that we had not been seeing each other for 1 month plus...... until June told me!!!! Walau eh...don't know what am I doing actually..... luckily they never forget me and I got a BIG HUG from each of them when they saw me!!!! Hahahahaa..... Baby!!!! Don't worry lah..... maybe we can be "Colleague" soon and can see each other more often liao leh? ;p

Anyway, took some stupib pictures when I'm "High" at Topz......

Grace & Me...... What is that idiot Alex doing behind???

Eunice & Me.......

The 3 Of Us.......

~The Less You Guys Are Around.... Means There Are More Women For Me~

2005-11-06T12:23:00.000-08:00

So tired & sianzzz man.... think my parent gonna reach S'pore soon.... and they gonna start "those nagging" again when they're home! Argghhh..... just can't stand their nagging! How I wish they can stay away from S'pore for a little while more.(Dream on...) Haha! Just afew presents & no nagging for me will be great!!!! Anyway, just got back home after settled some stuffs and had breakfast with Lianchen, Rongyao & weiwei at Cecil St. What is this, man??? The Lor Mee that we had is strongly recommended by alot of friends and heard that, they had been in business for more than 40 years! But after having it, the verdict = Disappointed!!!! Been wondering why are there still so many people queueing up when the food is so COLD when served???? Pui!!!

Sighs.... I know I'm complaining again.... but bo bian! Cause' I'm putting on weight AGAIN!!!! Arrghhh..... been eating non-stop and especially during at those weird weird time! What is having breakfast at 6.32 a.m. early in the morning without even sleeping for the whole night???!! Anyway, just send "her" home yesterday night.... but it seems that this stupib girl can't stay at home for long. Went out again after had dinner with friend. In the end, got herself drunk! While I went to meet my brother's at the "Big Carpark", and I received a "bad news"..... that is 1 of my "brother" had CANCER!!!! Sighs.... really speechless when all of us got the news but still have to "act blurr" cause' that brother of mine doesn't want anybody to know about his situation yet..... really feel that life are so fragile, no matter how strong or healthy they are.... and it's even worst, when we can't do anything about it!!!! Just watching helplessly as God take away my friends from me..... one by one....... Sighs.....

~Great Empires Do Not Fall..... They Crumble..... Brick By Brick.... Stone By Stone...... Until Nothing Is Left But Dust And Rubble~

2005-11-02T01:52:00.000-08:00

Sighs..... just send my "Qing Ai De" back home. Earlier on, there's so much laughter inside my room.... but now it seems so quiet man~ Hahahahaa..... kinda not used to the suddened change leh~ ;p

Anyway...... past few days had been great!!!! Last friday met Chanel & Lynn at bugis.... after that, we went to Momo!!! At first, I thought we can't finish up the bottle of martell..... but in the end, WE DID!!! And plus a super kick waterfall too!!!! Hahahahaaa..... then Lynn said, she wanna listen to techno songs..... so we went over to Shanghai at 3plus. When we reached there..... I'm already quite "high" liao..... but we still ordered a bottle of martell again! Hahahaha..... don't know what that stupib Chanel was doing..... kept vomit non-stop, the moment she stepped inside the disco. And she went home without even getting her butt on the sofa!!!! In the end, left me and Lynn to ROT in Shanghai!!!! But eventually both of us also went off after awhile.......

Arghhh....... sunday was back at Shanghai with Chanel & Lynn again to finished up the balance..... luckily this time round, it's not so shiong. Alrite, let's cut the craps and look at some pictures that we took......

Lynnlynn & Me at "Club Momo"

That's Chanel & Me!!!!

~Lynnlynn & Chanel~

My 2 Lovely companion for the night!!!!

Okay Okay..... that's all folks! Gonna watch my soccer match loh..... Good Nightz!

~Love Is Accepting The Other Person Just As They Are And Just As They Are Not~

2005-10-26T04:09:00.000-07:00

Wah...... it's been months since I last blog! Hahahahaa..... been wondering, if all my readers had already gave up on this blog??? You guys!!!! Please come back, OK???!!! Tag me!!!! Tag me!!!! I'm BACK!!!! I'm ALREADY BACK!!!! ;p

So much things had happened during all this while..... my elder brother wedding, alex birthday party etc!!!! Just having so much FUN!!!! Had been partying like there's no tomorrow for the past few weeks man.... just thinking of the smell of alcohol now makes me wanna puke!!!! You guys may be wondering, how come nowadays I'm so free to go party? Hahahaa..... ya, I had quitted my night time job because of some stupib reasons. And It's such a waste.... coz to me, though this job is quite "dangerous" and you have to handle those "stupib drunken cats" almost every night. But apart from all those shits..... it's still a very interesting job where you can see lots of interesting and funny sorts of people which you can't find during your normal 9-5 office jobs! And I also made quite alot of new friends too! Including BABES!!!! Hahahahaaa..... imagine those babes hitting out on you(Though I'm not handsome....) and insist on buying you drinks(Which I always deny) while you working and acting cool!!! ;p Since I got so "many lobang" while working at night life.... then how come I'm still so SINGLE & AVAILABLE???? Sighs..... I also don't know why..... maybe I'm just not a "player" in the game called "LOVE" And it seems to me that all good things don't last long~ So for the time being, I'm trying very hard to search for a new meaning in life. What is there to look forward to everyday, so that I won't be feeling so empty and lost at times....

Meanwhile just put down the phone with Chanel's friend..... what is this? Fancy calling a girl whom I don't know at all, just because we HAVE to "pakat" about something... and act as if we had known each other for a long time!!!! Hahahaa.... so paiseh sia...... but luckily her friend is quite chatty. If not, I think our "plan" will fail BIG TIME!!!! Hopefully by tomorrow evening, I can bring some "good news" to her...... *Pray hard*

Alright, that's all for now...... hope I can blog as often as possible since I'm quite free nowadays~

~You Don't Have To Prove One Wrong To Do What You Think Is Right~

2005-08-31T00:08:00.000-07:00

I'm BACK!!! I'm BACK!!! Finally got time to have some rest liao!!!!! Who said, I'm gonna close down my blog huh? It's been more than a month since I last blog..... been so busy recently man cause' just started my new job at night. Quite happy with my new job, though It's abit tiring.....
nothing much happen to me except been working my ass off for every single day & night......

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While I'm typing out this post..... my phone rang!!!! Kanna called back to work on my OFF DAY!!!! Now you guys know why I seldom blog???!!! To be continue......

~The Path Of Hate Doesn't Lead To Satisfaction...... It Only Leads To More Hate~

2005-07-18T00:17:00.000-07:00

Yesterday accompany Weiwei & my baby godson to orchard cause' she wanna get a birthday present for her husband, Rongyao.(Who is also my best friend) In the end, we went to buy a Louis Vutton wallet for him. Can't stand that stupib Weiwei, actually asked her to bring along a baby pram, so that we can put the baby in it if we're tired from carrying him, but she don't want, cause' she said she will look like an AUNTY!!!!*Faint* And because of her wanting to keep her "Young Lady Image", my hand are aching like hell now!!! Hahahaa.... luckily we met up with Celine, who is workng nearby for lunch at Swensen after she knock off cause' she can helped me carry the baby too! If not, I don't think I can type out this post liao.... can't imagine that, my hands actually started to tremble while holding a cigrarette! After that, we went to Indochine to have a few drinks in early afternoon!!! Now I realised that, it's really no joke bringing a toddler out for shopping......

Hahahahaa...... actually wanted to stick the cigarette in his mouth but his mum stop me~

Then later in the night.... Me, Weiwei & Mark hold a small celebration for the birthday boy at Devil's Bar. Reached there quite early, but also got drunk very early!!!! Hahahahaa...... just a bottle of black label, 1 jug of long island tea & afew cocktail is enough to "knock him out"!!!! It was only 1 plus, and the fun are just about to start but too bad, we left..... cause' he had already started vomitting by then!!!! Hahahaa.... at least, what I had plan to do to this birthday boy works...... and that is to "KNOCK HIM OUT"!!!!! ;p But that comes with a "heavy price" too...... HANGOVER~

~If You Live Each Day As If It Was Your Last...... Someday You'll Most Certainly Be Right~

2005-07-07T20:20:00.000-07:00

I got a "Guy Friend"(Whom I known for many donkey years) I think, he and his girlfriend can be the "Weirdest Couple" of Year 2005!!! And I really believed that, "This Tittle" rightfully belongs to them, even though it's not year end yet!!!! Hahahaha..... It's because I always hear them said, "We had broke up..... and I don't want to have anything to do with him/her anymore". But in the end, you will always see them patch back AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN till I've lost count.... I don't really know what's wrong with them..... but one thing I'm sure of, is
there's no point getting into a relationship if you ain't going to commit yourself into it. You will only mess up your life thus making it even more miserable.

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~For Both Of You~

The key to sustain love is through communication. Too many a times, we bottled up our feelings and find some strangers, that you will soon called “your new found friend” to sob your "So-Called Emotional Turmoil" It's Bullshit, OK???!! Think about it....... will that help you solve anything? Will your partner be aware of your pain? Confront your fears, disappointment and/or anger to that person, you once known to love. Don't fuckin’ be a coward and run away to seek temporary shelter with some “God Damn Whosoever” that you think they will understands you and gives you cheap comfort. That's more like popping the painkiller, although it relieves the pain, but it ain’t gonna cure your sickness! And you don't even know and/or admit that you are just a self-seeking sicko, tearing yourself up in pain! So drop that painkiller and find that STUPIB KEY!!!! Asshole.......

Alrite..... gonna stop acting as if I'm a "Professional" when I'm actually a loser in this game called, "Love"!!!! Hahahahaahaa...... ;p

~Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off..... But Taking The Clothes Off Is The Climax~

2005-07-06T01:45:00.000-07:00

It been so long that since I last blog...... was feeling quite lazy recently. Sighs..... and ever since I
started working, I had totally stopped going for my sun-tan or jogging anymore cause' I'm already very tired when I reached home after work.(Lame) Guess that all my effort had gone to waste again.....

Anyway, I'm just back from my ex gf(Plain Jan) house. FINALLY got to returned back her belonging..... cause' her stuffs had been laying in my house for way too long and I'm sick of seeing so many bags in my room. Don't know what's happening to me..... but my mind suddendly goes blank when I saw her just now. So many memories suddendly flashed through my mind. Then we chatted for awhile and left...... although we said before that we'll still continue to be good friend after we broke off but I doubt so...... and I think that this will be the last time that I'll ever see her again. I mean, how can we forget about everything still be as good as before. Hahahahaa...... maybe to some of you guys can do it..... but it's very hard for me lah~

YawnzzzZ..... my eyes are closing soon~ Need to sleep now, nitezzzZ........ everyone!
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Oh.... I almost forgot!!!! Please don't watch "War Of The Worlds"cause' the show really SUCKS BIG TIME!!!! Don't waste your time~

~Nowadays 80% Of Women Are Against Marriage..... Why? Because Women Realize That.... It's Not Worth Buying An Entire Pig Just To Get A Little Sausage~

2005-06-21T01:34:00.000-07:00

Damn fucking tired today..... cause' it's MONDAY!!!! Or is it because of all those drinks I had from last night? Nabei..... having hangover already and early in the morning kanna "F" by someone during work somemore! What the fuck?! Yalah...... I'm late for my appoinment lah.... but so what??? I'm ALWAYS late mah.... what's the big deal?!(Hehehee.... act cocky only, don't be so serious ;p)

Anyway, yesterday was my godson 1st month old and we had a small celebration for him!!!! Hahahaa........ or should I said, we had a drinking session for ourself???!! Yesterday was a "damn high" day for me...... been drinking(Again....) since 12plus in the afternoon till 10plus at night!!!! In the end, we don't even know how many CARTONS of beer we had finished up!!!! Even had to bring out a bottle of volka by evening time!!!! And I just can't resist ABSOLUTE VOLKA!!! (Helplessly) Alrite, better let you guys enjoy some of the pictures lah......

My Handsome Godson, Xavier!!!!

It's Him Again.....

"Father" & "Son"(Me Before Drunk....)

See My Face...... Damn Drunk Liao~

Hahahahaa...... My Wife & My Son~

My Primary School Classmate, Xinjian

4 Old Friends...... Known Each Other Since 14 Years Old~

Okay..... that's all for now~ Sighs..... think I'll stop drinking for the rest of the week liao..... cause' keep having hangover and these feelings sucks!!! Anyway, tomorrow having meeting..... gonna sleep now..... If not, later kanna "F" by others again...... NitezzzZ~

~All The World Is Just A Stage And The Men And Women Merely Actors..... They Have Their Exits And Entrances~

2005-06-15T00:56:00.000-07:00

YawnzzzZ.... Betty Meimei just tag me, saying that I had not been blogging recently. Hahahaa..... actually I know, but it's just that I'm been lazy lah..... cause' just started out with my new job at "Johnson & Johnson". Although It may be too early to judge anything now, but everythings been great so far!!! It's quite a nice job with some wonderful colleagues. Hopefully everything will stay at it is as now. But maybe I am suffering from slacking too much for the past few months..... now everyday seems too tired to me do anything whenever I knock off from work expect meeting up friends for dinner or drinking.... therefore I had stop going for my daily jogging swimming and suntaning! Sighs..... think all my past effort had gone to waste, gonna do something about it real soon!

Today after knock off, I went back to the workshop to get back the poor car. Hmmm.... it look as good as a brand new car now!!! Hopefully no more accident from my brother.*Touchwood* After collecting the car, I went Chinatown to fetch Grace from work.(I own them) Actually planning to meet Alex at Sembawang for dinner after that but he's still busy, so drove all the way back to Jurong to pick up Mark instead cause' he also haven't had his dinner. Nabei...... can't really stand that idiot, keep cursing and swearing the moment we reached!!!! Been wondering whether he had ate lots of SHITS in his previous life anot.... cause' don't know why his mouth always so full of VULGAR WORDS!!! So "Smelly"!!!! By the time we met up with Alex, it was already 8plus..... and everyone was hungry like hell...... so we just settled for a BBQ stingray meal nearby at Jurong. Walau..... can't imagine that the 4 of us had 3 bowl of porrigde, 4 bowl of rice and 5 dish meal!!!!! In the end, I had so much food that I feel like puking while sending Mark home........

After sending Mark home, I went to meet "someone"(Whose name is not appropriate to put up here) What is "S.P. Road"???!! Fuck man, really had a hard time finding that stupib place! The place is so ulu that I don't even heard of it before!!!! Was feeling quite happy when I finally saw her cause' it's been afew months since we last met..... actually thought of bringing her elsewhere and send her home later on. But sighs..... she's with her friends and can't leave..... and partly because it's getting late and she's afraid I might get into some "trouble". So in the end, we just had a short chat inside my car and I left..... (Hey, gal! Remember what you had "promise" hor?! Hahaha..... ;p)

YawnzzzZ...... gonna sleep now, my eyes are closing soon. Hope to update more regularly when I get use to my working life again. NitezzzZ....

~Life Is Like A Box Of Chocolate..... You'll Never Know What You Gonna Get Inside~

2005-06-07T00:52:00.000-07:00

I'm soooo tired man! Suffering from hangover again..... yesterday was my grandma 81th birthday and went to Spring Court to celebrated it with my BIG FAMILY!!!!(Mind you, I had about more than thirty over cousins alone!) We booked a VIP room with karaoke system in it. So shiok man.... and the whole 5th floor of the restaurant belongs to us only!!! But I can tell you guys that the food there REALLY SUCKS!!!! But overall it's was FUN! Been drinking(again....) throughout the whole night..... was actually feeling quite happy to see all my relatives laughing and drinking away...... really hope that in 10 more years to come, those "younger generation" can continue to mantain this great relationships that we had in the family. In the end, we stayed there till around 10plus. After that, went to a pub(Forgot the name) at Marina South with my younger brother and afew cousins of mine.(My 4 little cousins also tag along and they actually drank too!) Actually all of us were already very "high" liao..... by the time we reached there but don't know why we still ordered 2 bottles of Chivas Regal..... this time really drink till we drop..... hic*

While on the way to meet my FAVOURITE UNCLE at Newton Circus to have supper..... my drunk brother crashed the car onto the road shoulder and end up STUCKED on the kerb!!!! Nabei.... the exhuast pipe almost came off lor..... in the end, we had to quickly PUSH the car back on the road again and drive off before the police reach!!!! Fuck man..... my heart damn pain lor..... cause' the car is ONLY 3 MONTHS OLD LEH!!!! Arggghhhh....... forget it and enjoy the pictures lah~

That's me before drunk.....

Me & Raymond......(Ya.... I know I look younger than him)

My brother Brandon & Me.......(Abit high liao......)

Me & Carey.....

Me & Carey singing.....

Me & Carey "KISSING"!!!!(Hmmm.... distracted by something on her hair?)

Yucks!!! I HATE LESBIAN and they actually touched their lips!!!!!

Nabei..... kanna molested while singing.....

While we're still sober........

Uglier version of F4......

High liao.....

Me & my little cousins......

We're acting crazy again......

Celia, Peijie, Me & Ermmm..... I forgot her *name*

My brother, Brandon "Ya Ya face" BEFORE the accident take place......

His "Worried Face"(Middle), AFTER the accident took place......

Alrite, that's all for now..... actually still got alot more pictures but I'm too tired now~ Won't be working tomorrow cause' gonna bring that poor car to workshop...... NitezzzZ.......

2005-06-04T22:59:00.000-07:00

YawnzzzZ..... just woke up not long ago. Yesterday night went to Mark's cousin house at Kembangan to play manjong until this morning 6 a.m and I ended up been the BIG loser!!!! Fuck man, how come my ladyluck ditched me when I need her most??? Can't imagine that I'm the only one person who kept losing to the three of them. Think this is the first time I lose quite alot of money in manjong! Pui! So damn unlucky! Some more, I cannot smoke inside his cousin house!!!! Walau.... how can my brain "function" when I can't smoke, rite??? No wonder I lose throughout the whole night! These few days really been not my days! Everything I do, don't seems to go smoothly...... always kept banging myself into the cold hard wall, regardless in love life or careerwise.

Ohhh..... talking about love life. I got a bad news to announce and that is..... after a long chat with "her" afew days back, we had decided to discontinue this relationship. But we had promise each other to remain as good friends. Probably we may live to regret this decision in the future but at the moment, this is the only way out of our misery since this relationship is taking a toll on both of us. Guess that FATE had really played a cruel trick on us, he brought us back together after we lose contact for 10 long years..... but only to tear us apart in less than a month!!! Sighs...... all I can said is that, this relationship is not a normal case of "I wanna break up because I don't love you anymore" or whatsoever, which you guys usually saw but it's been more of "We do love each other but due to some very "complicated problems" that will involved family members, we were unable to continue this wonderful relationship. (Dear Wendy, hope you understand why I agreed with your "Happily Ever After" now) Never had I thought these kind of things will happened to me and such scene will only appear in drama series. Maybe I should write all this "story" into a script and ask Jack Neo to make a movie out of it. I'm sure it will be a box office hit!!!

Alrite guys..... that's all, for now cause' meeting Mark to have supper at the usual prata shop later..... Tata~

~We Either Make Ourself Miserable Or We Make Ourself Strong..... The Amount Of Work Is The Same~

2005-05-31T20:59:00.000-07:00

Recently so much things had happened to me and was feeling quite down for the past few days. Think I'm going to suffering from love-sickness soon. Sighs..... not going to said more about it. Maybe those close friends of mine will know what I mean. Got myself a job recently, which pay quite well but sucks BIG TIME!!! Have to endure for awhile cause' I'm doing my "Da Ge" a favour by helping him out and thought of buying some clothes after getting my pay....... but guess all those money will goes to paying all my BILLS!!!! Walau.... the sight of it makes me wanna go CRAZY!!!!

Met Forest last night to have dinner.(Hehehee.... you scare?;p) and we went to Nooch at Paragon and I had Beef noodle soup. Hmmm.... yummy~ After that we went my friend pub at Boat Quay. Walau..... that stupib girl drank so little, whereas I drank like a mad man trying to drown his sorrow. What is this? 2 jugs of "extra volka" 7-up and 2 glasses of "super thick long island tea" is all I need to knock myself out. I end up vomitted and lying on the floor of my void-deck after sending her home..... luckily I'm still sober enough to call my brother and asked him to come down and carry me home...... if not, I think it's either those aunties going for morning exercise or road sweeper will have drag me home instead of my brother!!!! Woke up this afternoon and found alot of bruises on my body.... think it's the outcome of not been able to walk properly! Even till now, I'm still suffering from the hangover while typing this! But overall very FUN!!! Cause' drinking can makes me forget all about my problems! Hey, Horny!!!! Don't forget about "Devil's!" "Devil's!" "Devil's!"Hahahahaa.....

Was browsing through friendster this afternoon..... and I suddendly chance upon a girl..... a girl who will always hold a special place in my heart and had never really been replaced..... she was my ex-girlfriend and we used to be together for about 6years plus. She's the one who really show me what love truely means..... but due to my immaturity and wildful life, we broke off in year 2002. We only met once after all these years, and that was afew years back during a friend birthday party. After that night, we never seen each other ever again...... years passed.... all the hatred and love I had for her are gone. When I looked at her friendster pictures now, only memories stayed on..... Even till now, all my nuts friends will called me whenever they saw her! And I don't understand why also???!! Maybe they still think that I haven move on or whatsoever. Hahahaa.... been wondering, what will become to us had we stay on, in this relationship. Think we would have get married and have children now. Hahahaha...... and yeah, married she did! But not to me! Anyway, heard from my friends that she's married to a certain "friend" of mine and they also had a beautiful daughter now. Just wanna wish her all the best in whatever she do......

Saw a quote online and I find it quite true to a "certain extend", so I decided to post it up......
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"Happily ever after" only happens in fairy tales. In reality, sad to said....... it's always a sad ending. No matter how happy a relationship could be...... that's only the process. The ending will always be sad. It's either a breakoff or one party leaving. Leaving as in death.....

~There Are Nothing Permanent Except Change...... Are You As Happy As What You Want Today?~

2005-05-26T23:28:00.000-07:00

Won't be writting much today.... cause' just argued with my buddy Edwin on MSN..... and it concern about his cousin(My GF) again. It's giving me tons of headache. Sighs...... I'm really sick and tired of all this "shits". Aiyah..... don't said anymore, finally received some pictures taken during my cousin's wedding from little girl, Peijie!!! But it's very badly taken..... so you guys endure hor?

Pardon me for been not serious......(Blurr pic)

My little cousin, Peijie & Me.....(What happened to my lips???)

My little cousin, Celeste & Me.....(Ohh....my lips still intact)

Another little cousin of mine, Slyvia...... This 3 girls been bugging me to have pics taken with them!!!(Why am I so popular huh???)

3 Little pigs & A Big BAD WOLF!!!

Arggghhhhh........... can't get these girls off my back!!!(Blurr pic again)

Can't stand them.........

Very impressive "Star".......

My 2 beautiful aunty.....(Mai siao siao.....they are also chiongster hor?!) Hahahaaa....

And lastly........ ~My Plain Jan~

That's all folks...... actually still got alot more pictures..... but the bride haven pass it to me. I'll try to upload it as soon as I receive from her.
......................................................................................................................................................................... ~To some "Fruitcake"~

(I'm still hanging on cause' I had made a "promise" to you(Asshole)....... and up till now I still hope to keep this "promise"..... but don't blame me if I can't..... cause' I don't think I can take it any longer! One day you will understand how I felt...... when I decide to break this promise)

~Ne Me Blamez Pas Si Je Transforme En Batard Malveillant~

2005-05-24T04:43:00.000-07:00

Wow...... yesterday went to Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel for my cousin wedding dinner. Can tell you guys, the food there is quite nice lor.... and the service they provided was excellent too! But too bad, I drank more than I ate...... cause' my uncle kept asking me to accompany him drink.... in the end, drink until so high! Think the most red wine I drank in my life at one go is one and half bottles, but this time round I had so much more than that! Quite scary..... but overall was fun lah. After the dinner, went to Velvet Underground together with my brother, his wife and some cousins..... and it was kind of bored cause' all of them just sat down there and look around. Actually Eric and my buddy Edwin was at Zouk, and I wanna go over but how can I just leave all my cousins there, rite? So only get to go over when all of them had left. At least I had so much fun at Zouk. Hahahhaaa..... met Mavis for the 1st time there, so paiseh.... actually knew this nice and friendly girl through Eric. We often chat on MSN only and I never seen her before until last night! In the end, we left for supper at around 3plus...... so tired man!

Just finished chatting with "her"....... actually was quite relieved when she assured me that everything is fine cause' we never meet each other for quite awhile liao..... and we really had a good talk about it. She said, she can sense I'm quite upset about everything that had happened...
and she's very sorry. But I don't blame her lah...... cause' this is the choice that I've made. Just hope that everything will be settle soon.....

Alrite..... that's all for now. Recently been going to the hospital and drinking alot. Need to rest now. Hopefully can upload some pictures from the wedding dinner when I receive it! Someone told me before that the best way to cure hangover is to drink more...... it's BULLSHIT!!!!!

~The Only Thing That Is Constant In Life Is Change.... So Always Be Prepared For Changes And To Change~

2005-05-22T05:51:00.000-07:00

What am I doing here??? It's 5.51 am now, and I'm still here blogging away! Hahahaaa....actually been waiting for my best friend Rongyao good new, cause his wife went into labour today! He just called me and his wife Weiwei had just given birth to a healthy baby boy!!! Can hear that he's very excited. Felt so happy for them! Nabei.... received a "false alarm" this afternoon by sms from him and said that he was rushing to hospital soon, so I quickly hailed a cab and rushed down to Mount Alvernia in a SUPER HEAVY RAIN!!! But when I reached there..... saw him at the hospital reception about to register ONLY! Nabei.... made me rushed down for nothing...... in the end, meet Mark for dinner. And speaking of cab..... earlier I almost quarrel with that stupib taxi-driver while on the way to the hospital!!!!

Me: Uncle, Mount "A"....
Uncle: ok....
Me: Remember, not Mount "E" hor?
Uncle: Okok.....
Me: Uncle, can faster? I'm in a hurry. Urgent....
Uncle: Sorry, I can't cause' raining heavily. Very dangerous....

By this time, I'm already fed up with the taxi-driver! Cause' he's driving at only 60-70km/hr on PIE! And every car is overtaking him and giving him a stare before they past by. The final straw came when he suddendly exit by Steven Rd!!! Then I asked......

Me: (Calm tone)Uncle, why you exit by Steven Rd? I'm going to Mount "A" leh.... ain't exit by
Thomson Rd the actual way?
Uncle: Huh??? Why don't you said properly? I thought you wanna go Mount "E"?
Me:(Pissed but Calm tone) I thought I told you earlier???!!

Can't stand it, the stupib uncle still wanna agrue with me along the way.... but I just asked him to shut up and drive on. Walau..... come to think of that, the uncle should be glad that I had already
changed.(My temper) If not, I think I'll curse and swear till he forget what his parent names are!!!!

~I Got Two Life..... One Is For Myself...... And The Other Is For My Dream~

2005-05-21T01:39:00.000-07:00

Sighs.... sianz man~ Never meet my GF today..... can't imagine that I get to meet her only ONCE for this week!!!! Guess that I have to wait till next week then can see her liao......

Instead went to meet Priscilla for lunch today. Think I have not seen this girl for quite some time liao, cause' she's always so busy and her job need her fly around often. Hehehee...... think gonna ask her introduce me a few stewardess soon! ;p We only used to contact each other through sms or email. So was quite surprised to see her on MSN this morning. Feeling hungry after chatting for awhile, and we decided to meet up for lunch. After that, accompany her go IMM buy groccery and help her carry so many stuffs!!!! Nabei.... don't know when did I become her maid huh??!! Hahahahaa..... actually don't mind lah cause' guys need to be gentlemen mah and she promised to get me something when she's back from Japan on monday!!!! ;p Well...... at least she still appreciated what I did for her, and treated me to have coffee at don't know what cafe!(Wonder where the Starbucks gone to???)

Was chatting with Mark and my buddies earlier on MSN...... and I'm sad to said, we're all in the same boat. All of us are troubled....... how come things always don't turn out what we want it to be? We seems to step on "SHIT" with everysteps that we made..... and those feeling SUCKS!!!! And suddenly thought of what my "Honey" had told me, and would like to shared these advice with you guys here..... "There's no right or wrong in love, just that we got to let our head to rule our heart, and not the other way round. Maybe by doing this, we won't get hurt that easily." But hor!!! I told her that, I'm those type who think the other way round leh..... how huh??? Then she reply, "Maybe that's why you're the one who always get hurt!!!" Nabei..... how true...... :(

Suppose to meet that Stupib Mark to la kopi..... but look at what time izzit now? Guess that idiot too engross with his stupib game liao...... fucker, put me areoplane!!! _l_

~I Do Believe That Soulmates Do Exist..... That There Is Truely Someone Made For You..... But It's Up To You To Make The Choice If You Are Going To Do Something About It Anot~

2005-05-20T02:10:00.000-07:00

Don't know why.... and I just click onto "her" blog address.(The girl whom I created this blog for) Was reading through the past posting on "her" blog. I was smiling as I read her past entries ...... and with abit of sadness too~ Sighs.... what can I said? With that relaxing background music playing, it brings back all those bad and good times that we used to shared together..... the things she had done for me..... reminds me of every single things. She was very young, much more younger then me but mature~ Still clearly remember her shy & innocent look.... the meeting at City Hall.... the Mos Burger restaurant at MS and my office at Yishun.(Thinking back..... it's been hard on her.) Don't think I will ever forget all this things that had happened, cause' of that stupib company. Hahahaa.... supposed every good things must come to an ending.... but too bad, this ending is not a beautiful one~ Anyway, heard that she's going to complete her studies soon and are happily together with a new BF now. Would really liked to thank her for accompany me walking through one of the darkest period in my 27th years on this planet~

~Thank You Very Much~
.........................................................................................................................................................................

Was supposed to meet my GF today and we haven meet for so many days~ But in the end, never get to meet up cause' she's sick. I'm abit pissed off at first, cause' I was already preparing myself half way to go for dinner together when she suddendly sms me and said she doesn't want to meet liao and wanna stay at home and rest. I nearly blew my top!!! Luckily I managed cool down..... if not, think World War 3 gonna start!!!! I feels that recently we are drifting apart...... since she got this new job..... we're not meeting or toking as often as we used to be. She can be so concentrate on her new job that she can totally forget all about me!!! Sighs..... think this is the 1st time I got a GF who is so focus on her job.(Or should I said, Career-Minded?) Blame who??!Who asked me to fall in love with this cousin of my buddy???!! Well...... I guess I'll just have to "任命" and endure all this shit..... and hopefully can get to see her tomorrow cause' this weekend she will be gone for afew days again.... sighs..... don't know when this thing gonna stop. Ti Gong!!!!! Where are you???!!!!

~Are You For Real..... Or Everything Just An Illusion~

Bizarre Love Triangle

2005-05-17T12:30:00.000-07:00

~Bizarre Love Triangle~

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue.
It's no problem with mind, but it's a problem I find.
Living a life that I can't leave behind.
There's no sense in telling me.
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free.
But that's the way that it goes and it's what nobody knows.
And every day my confusion grows.

Every time I see you falling.
I get down on my knees and pray.
I'm waiting for that final moment you say the words that I can't say.
I feel fine and I feel good.
I feel like I never should.
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say.
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday.
I'm not sure what this could mean.
I don't think you're what you seem.
I do admit to myself that if I hurt someone else.
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be.

Every time I see you falling I'll
Get down on my knees and pray.
I'm waiting for the final moment you'll say the words that I can't say.

~Happiness Is Not Just To Love But To Be Loved Too~

2005-05-15T03:33:00.000-07:00

Just back home not long ago..... went Geylang with Rongyao, his wife and some friends to have frog leg porridge for our dinner just now.... so full man~ Then after we finished eating, Alex and Grace came along. So funny..... Alex just had his heart operation, and can't talk loudly. What happened to the "Loud Speaker" huh??? Hahahahaa..... really not use to him talking so softly lor~ Then after the rest of the guys went off..... me, Rongyao & Weiwei accompany Alex & Grace to have Teochew porridge at another street. Sick man lah... what to do? Have to eat light stuff lor~ ;p Nabei..... had our 2nd round when we reached there!!! That stupib Alex order a special "fish dish" for us to try. Almost vomit out all the frog legs & beer which we took earlier. Wah..... in the end, we stay there and talk cock till 12plus~

Went for a few interviews this week. Actually gonna sign confirmation letter for a "Land Banking" job this afternoon.... but in the end, back out cause' I find that the company is not "stable & reliable" think it just started about 6mths ago only..... and most importantly, this job got no basic pay!!!! How am I gonna survive without any basics if I don't have sales??? Siao!!!! Actually I'm hoping get a reply from a "certain company" soon cause' if I still don't get a reply from them by next wedensday, that means it's gone.....

Sighs..... I've been putting up a smily face for the whole day when actually I'm not happy at all!!!
Actually for the whole day, I was waiting for "her" call..... but it didn't happened and "she" really disappointed me lor. In the end, just received a sms from "her" telling me that "she" miss me~
Hahaahaha..... is this a joke or what???!! Is that all she want to said to me for the whole day??? What I want is a GF who can provide me with the love & care that I long for.... and not a girl whom I have to keep telling her what she should do to make me happy. Is that too much to ask for? Sighs...... I really don't know. I have high hope for this relationship, and even "her" cousin who is my buddy also starts "supporting" me now. I really hope things will turn out fine. Like what "she" said to my buddy, I'm starting to get paranoid nowadays cause' "she" can't always accompany me. Maybe she's right.... maybe it's just emotions taking over me.... too caught up in the sorrow and making me lost in the process...... or it's just maybe....? I really don't know what's wrong with me~ Sighs...... I've got my pride, I will not cry but it's making me weak........

~Why Do I Still Choose To Love Her When I Know Love Will Hurt So Much~

2005-05-10T00:59:00.000-07:00

Sighs.... she will not be around for afew days again.... I always HATE THIS DAY!!!! I HATE IT!
Anyway, tomorrow will be going for 3 interviews within 4 hours.... stress man. Don't know can make it on time anot.... suddendly got so many interviews to attend. Hopefully can get at least one.

Sighs..... that's it guys~ Tomorrow got to wake up early for my haircut appointment and I really got no mood to blog..... Good NitezzzZ~

~Committing Mistakes Is Not What's Important Here..... What Counts Is The Act Of Righting Wrongs~

2005-05-07T02:28:00.000-07:00

What a tiring day.... went for a ride on Mark bike just now and we went to la kopi at a coffeeshop near NUS. So excited at first, cause' it been such a long time since I last sat on a bike liao...... some more I think his bike got abit of problem lah. Don't seems to move smoothly. This afternoon went for an interview at Tanjong Pagar. Actually it's a retail sales job at orchard, dealing with branded goods.... and I'm going for the second interview on next tuesday. Although I hate working retail hours & the basic pay seems abit low to me..... but I still hope to get this job cause' my money is running out soon! This time it's REAL!!!! Ohhh....god! What am I gonna do with so many bills that seems to keep piling up everyday????!!! Think I'm gonna be a DEAD DUCK liao!!! :(

Sighs..... beside my bills~ Actually there's some other "problems" that had been bugging me recently. It's driving me CRAZY & I'm under tremendous pressure to PERFORM!!! I'm hitting the "30 mark" soon, but due to the stupib company.... I'm left with NOTHING now! Everything gone..... have to start all over again.... I really don't know whether I can pull myself up from this shit.... everything in a mess now. Think I'm going to suffer from severe emotion breakdown soon. One moment I can be on cloud nine and the other moment I'm brought back to reality.... (Though I'm not gonna said it here) But I really wish this "thing" will settle fast.... so I'll just gonna pray hard that LUCK is on my side and the outcome will goes my way eventually~ Dear Ti Gong..... po pi~ po pi~

~Every Step I Take, Every Move I Make, Everytime I Pray, Every Single Day, I'll Be Missing You~

2005-05-06T00:53:00.000-07:00

You're the sunshine of my day
Always brighten up my life
You take a piece of me with you
Whenever you say good bye
And I hate to see you go
Even when I know that you'll come back
It's hard to breath without you girl
And baby that's a fact
I know sometime you have to "leave"
But how I wish that you could stay
Every time when you go away.......

~To Love With No Regrets~

2005-05-04T02:19:00.000-07:00

So bored.... she was so busy preparing some papers for her work tomorrow that she totally forget about my existence even when I'm just sitting beside her now!!!! Sian man..... I got nothing to do and was feeling abit sleepy liao.... while waiting for my soccer match to start, so come online to blog for awhile lor..... I'm beginning to agree with those people who said that "We are just living in a small planet called EARTH and no matter where we're.... we'll bum into people that we know everywhere, anytime" lor.

Sighs.... anyway, the story goes like this..... I got screwed by my buddy Edwin, "BIG TIME" last night..... we're actually chatting online half-way when he saw the pictures on my MSN and asked me, what's the girl name that was beside me in the picture. He blew his top when he heard that girl name!!!! At first I thought what's the big deal... and she turns out to be my buddy COUSIN! Believe it anot???!! My current GF is his COUSIN!!!! Walau..... what a small world... really screwed by him upside down lor~ But I don't blame him cause' I understand how he feels..... if I'm in his shoe, I will also get "angry" lor... or should I said, "Worried"? After all, we used to fool around and talk rubbish together. Hmmm...... maybe that's the reason why he's so worried about having a "Buaya" by his cousin side!!!! And you know when you watch comedies, there's always some guy who tries to explain and save himself but keeps digging deeper into his grave? Well..... suppose that's me!

Been wondering..... why is this world so full of coincidences huh???!! But how come whenever I buy 4D also never so "chun" before? Hmmm..... maybe this is what people called, FATE? Alrite, my soccer match starting soon..... but before I go, just wanna tell my buddy that... don't worry,(Although I know it's hard) but I really know what I am doing..... and I won't let you down~

~The True Measure Of Compatibility Is Not The Years That Are Spent Together.... But How Good You Are For Each Other~

2005-05-02T21:33:00.000-07:00

Realised that I had not been blogging as often as I used to be. Hehehe.... actually I'm busy "dating" lah and was too tired to blog when I got home! :p Had an wonderful weekend.... went to watch the show "Divergence" with Janet last friday night cause' she wanted to see her idol Daniel Wu. Walau.... what so great about him huh?! How come nowsadays everyone around me seems to go gaga whenever his name is mention??! Siao! Then Mark came to my house on Saturday to helped me reformatte my PC. Yeah!!! Finally my PC are free of VIRUS!!!(Thanks FUCKER) and Janet came up my house too after she knock off~ She told me that Mark actually looks like Daniel Wu too! (Wanna Puke) Well.... I don't deny lor.... actually got abit lookalike(side-view) lah. So anyone who wants a autograph from a uglier version of "Daniel Wu" can just tag me lah! Hahahahahhaaa.... :p Hehehee.... brought Janet to meet Rongyao yesterday to have a "primary school reunion"! Can see that they're very happy when they saw each other lor...... after all they had not seen each other for so long liao.... hahahaaha... I had so much fun listening to their childhood stories!

Just send "Her" off to work this morning. Sighs.... kinda sianzzz when "She" left~ Anyway, went to meet Rongyao & Weiwei for breakfast after that and we had Dim Sum but it's sucks lor.... Yucks! Then while on the way home, that stupib Mark called and asked me accompany him go Yishun to get some stuff from his friend mum. Walau.... actually I'm very sleepy when he called and was planning to get some sleep after my breakfast lor.... but in the end still accompany him go lah.(Nabei..... he better bring me out for a ride when his bike is ready!!!!)

Well.... think I'm gonna rest liao cause' some friends said I look very tired nowadays! And also wanted get back all my sleep for the past few days. Sighs...... it's been such a long time that I sleep so early. Think the sun gonna rise from the north tomorrow!!!!! Hehehee... so excited, cause' tomorrow meeting "Her" again! Good NitezzzzZ..... Everyone!!!!!

~Giving Someone All Your Love Is Never An Assurance That They'll Love You Back~

2005-04-26T01:18:00.000-07:00

Finally I'm blogging today after recharging my battery.... feeling exhausted for the past few days cause' been going out with some friends~ And finally my MSN is back to normal liao....
Actually came just back from Mark house. Was feeling bored and wanted to "avoid someone".... so went over his place to play games. Never imagine that I'll be so free till I went over to friends house to play games~ And waited for the stupib bus for a fucking 30mins to arrived before I can get home!!!

Sunday received upteen times of calls & sms from Hong, kept asking me to join him at a KTV at geylang. Although I don't like don't like those kind of places (Imagine spending $350 on a bottle of Martell excluding tips) but in the end still go find him cause' he's alone and wanna me to accompany him drink. Heard that KTV is the "Hottest" in geylang at the moment!!!! And I totally agreed with it. Hahahahaaa..... the hostess are damn "Scary" lor..... or should I said, "Horny"? The moment I stepped into the room, those hostess kept hugging me like never saw a guy in their lives before!!!! Although I hate girls that are made in CHINA but I don't deny most of them are quite pretty. In the end, 1 girl ended on my lap for the whole night and she wanted to follow me home when we are about to leave that night!!! But I deny.... don't know why also.... what a waste~ Overall the whole night was FUN !!!Hehehe.... ;p

Then yesterday met Janet at IMM for lunch. Wow.... it's been more then 12 years since we last had a proper conversation together and she's still the ever cheerful & optimistic girl that I've known. We did alot of catching up of our lives for the past few years over lunch. And concidently , she also know my best friend Rongyao. Then she accompany me go Orchard to look for some clothes cause' I'm going to attend my cousin wedding next month. Wow.... we even continue our conversation over dinner at Swensen. Hahahahhaa..... we sure got alot of things to chat man! After that I just send her home cause' she's staying quite near my house also. Had such an enjoyable time with her yesterday!(Thanks gal!) Anyway, we're going to meet again this week!

Sighs.... actually wanted to change my blog song to "Lonely" by Akon. Think this song suits my blog name but can't find leh.... Sighs.... forget it lah~ Going to rest for awhile now. Cause' watching soccer match later~ Ole Ole Ole Ole! Haahahaaaa.... think I'm going crazy! Good nitezzZ everyone!

~If I Have A Wish, I Will Choose To Go Back To The Past, Back To The Place Where I First Met You And Tell You That You Have A Great Smile And Said I Think I Have Fall In Love With You~

2005-04-24T01:33:00.000-07:00

FUCK MAN.... it's such a warm night and my MSN kanna virus!!!! Think won't be using MSN for awhile.... received a "file" through MSN from a girlfriend of mine and I am stupib enough to open that "file"!!!! Walau.... now my MSN kept sending those virus to my friends whenever I online.... hope they are not stupib enough to open those "file".(Although I warned them before) Sighs..... all I can do right now is to wait for my friend, Mark to help me solve my problems NEXT WEEK~(Ooi!!! You heard that??? FASTER leh!!!!)

Never get to visit Elton at NUH today cause' he's already discharged..... luckily we called his family first before we want to go down, or else it will be a waste trip~ Hopefully tomorrow can go his house to visit him....

Poor me.... it's saturday night, and here I am watching TV alone at home. Sighs.... I realised that it's getting harder and harder to find some kakis out for drinks as I grow older cause' all of them are either attached or married and they need to accompany their partners during weekend. Maybe that's the reason why I called myself "LonelyJames" in my blog & MSN(Lame) Think there's only left just a few "bachelor" like me within my close group of friends. But even then, most of them usually went to Zouk. I may party occasionally but it'll get kinda bored if you keep going there week in, week out. Some may asked, why don't I just get girlfriend and settle down? Well..... I did try, but found out that there's one problem that always arise when I get into a relationship(Okay, I admitted) and that is..... I always don't seems to be satisfied with what I have~ Always think that the next girlfriend I have, will be better then the present one. I know it's very bad of me to think that way. I tried to change for the better but HEY, that's me I'm LonelyJames!!!! It's either you hate me or love me~ ;p

~The True Measure Of Compatibility Is Not The Years That Are Spent Together.... But How Good You Are For Each Other~

2005-04-23T01:56:00.000-07:00

Sighs..... have not been blogging for the past few days cause' feeling sick. Woke up today feeling very dowsy and having sore-throat. Been such a long time since I fall sick liao.... think it's due to the lack of rest cause' I kept playing with that Fifa2005 and that's why I fall sick.... took some medicine just now and feeling much more better now~

Nothing much worth mentioning for the past few days.... except to wake up early every morning to flipped through classified section to look for a job and meet that stupib Mark and accompany him to Jurong Point to buy his PC.(Yes, he finally brought it) Finally got someone can help me reformatt my PC liao.... then while still at Jurong Point, went to find my long lost friend, Janet again~ At least this time round, got to said hi to her! Just received an SMS from her saying that while she's having her supper just now, she saw a guy with a "Bah Bah" body and slim legs(She said just like a FROG!!!!) that resemble ME!!! What is this???!! Do I really look like a FROG??!!! Nabei...... don't think that we had known each other for so long liao and I don't dare to KICK YOUR ASS hor!!!! Have to think for a nickname for her too!!!! If not, I will have no peace whenver I see her~ ;p

Going to NUH with gang tomorrow to visit Elton. Sighs... received a call from him this afternoon.... thought he's boring at home and call me to chit chat, but I was so shocked when he told me that his condition had deteriorate and the doctor advised him to admitted into the hospital~ It been 1 week already and no one knows that he's been hospitalise~ And he kept reminding me to bring some chocolates for him tomorrow~ Sighs..... I really don't know what to said~ It hurts me to see him "behave" this way...... just hope that he get well soon~

~We Do Not Stop Playing Because We Are Old.... We Grow Old Because We Stop Playing~

2005-04-19T03:24:00.000-07:00

Just send Mark home in that new Nissan Sunny Super Saloon!!!!! So excited when I lay my hands on the wheels, finally get to drive that new car after been out for almost 2 months. Actually I was feeling very nervous when driving to his house lor..... coz I still haven got back my driving licence and scare kanna road-block...... but that stupib Mark kept talking rubbish to me throughout the whole journey!!!! Nabei.... din't even keep a lookout for me!!!!

Went to IMM this afternoon..... and while waiting for a cab at my house downstairs, I saw Alex!!!! Hehehee.... asked him to drive me there instead coz I'm late AGAIN!!!!(Thanks Alex!!!) Then accompany Mark to find Shane regarding the PC again when I reached there.... in the end never buy coz he still haven decide what PC he want. After that he come up my house with his laptop to play FiFa2005 together. It was my 1st time playing this game through multiplayer on PC and it's was so much FUN!!!! We kept shouting & laughing away loudly!!!! Hahahahaa..... luckily my mum never come knocking at my door to ask us to shut up! :p

Sighs..... skipped jogging today coz Mark was at my house just now...... and never went for my swimming/tanning for almost 2 weeks liao..... coz nowadays the weather sucks..... hopefully tomorrow weather turn for a better. SHIT lah.... while I was typing away now, I suddendly had a strong craving for the claypot rice that I had last sunday.... and it's making me very hungry now..... and I also realised that I just had 1 meal today~ Arrrghhhh...... gonna endure it and go to sleep now before the thought of claypot rice makes me go crazy~ NitezzzZ!!!!

~No Women Will Ever Own 100% Of Me..... 'Cause I Belongs To 99 Other Women~

2005-04-17T03:54:00.000-07:00

I never go for that "Indecent Proposal" today...... neither did I call to inform, "The person whom it may concern". Hahahahaa......(Hope she's not angry with me) Instead went to meet Mark at Jurong Point this evening. Never seen him for so long, think only met him once at a coffeeshop years ago. We used to hang out together when we're young. Hehehee.... as usual, I was late. Thought that since my long lost-friend Janet are working there, I can go find her and said hi, but too bad she's off today~ Sighs..... no choice, think have to wait till next week then we can meet up. Then accompany Mark go Courts to look for a new PC because afew weeks ago, his girlfriend of 1 year actually THROW IT AWAY when they quarrel!!!!(Wow.... Believed that???!!!) What a fierce girlfriend he got!!!! And concidently, the sales guy who served us is my school mate! Don't know why, but I seems to bum into alot of my friends often on the streets. Actually Mark wanted to buy the PC from my school mate, but he forgot to bring his pay slip. We ended up at KFC for a meal after walking around at the shopping mall for quite awhile. And guess what???!!! I bum into another friend AGAIN!!!! Nabei.... buy 4D also never so "Zhun"~

Was chatting with Mark half way on MSN after we reached home when he told me that his girlfriend is coming up his house and have to stop chatting. So I was literally very surprised when he message me on MSN again after one hour later. He told me that his girlfriend just left his house and they had just broke off..... I was shocked, and asked him why? why so sudden? Thought they were still okay just awhile ago? Hahahahahaa!!! And I tell you guys, the reason why they broke off is the MOST OUTRAGEOUS ONE I EVER HEARD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!!!!(Age below 18 please skip this line) He told me that his girlfriend started to show him attitude face while helping him to "Blow" for only 1 minutes.... feeling frustrated, both of them quarrel and then broke off!!!!! Hahahahaaa..... really laugh me to death!!!! I think there's not many couples in this world that can get the chance of tasting this type of weird break off like my friend, Mark did!!!(Think he's gonna kill me when he read this!!!) ;p

It's saturday nitezzz... don't you guys find it weird that why I never mention about booze today? Haahahaa...... okay okay. Feeling very sleepy now~ NitezzzZ..... Everyone!

~Did Anyone Tell You That, Before You Wake Up, You Have To Stop Dreaming First~

2005-04-16T02:16:00.000-07:00

Burp.... just had my SUPPER! Felt so gulity after having it..... I used to love supper but stop having it recently coz I'm on diet~ But today I really can't tahan, damn hungry.... just had a packet of chicken rice for my dinner after jogging, so....... :( This afternoon woke up very late, coz I'm trying to finish up some interesting DVDs that my friend had borrowed me every night. It's those true-life HongKong documentary shows that let people to know more about famous haunted places, gods & GHOSTS in HongKong & Thailand! Although I'm not scare of these "things" coz I had encountered "them" quite afew times when I was serving my national service. But still, I felt abit uneasy after watching it lor.... hahahahaa.... maybe it's my age, I'm growing older liao & my heart getting weaker..... so that's why I find it abit scary!

This afternoon Alex called and met him for Bak Kut Teh. Nabei.... that fucker damn lame lor! Called me and said he kanna beaten by 7 young punk near my house until his lips spilt had opened!!! Who asked me to be so naive??? Never think twice whether he got something up on his sleeve AGAIN anot, and believed him!!!! Wanna rush down help him liao, when he started to laughed! Almost scare me to death.... always play this kind of joke on me!!!! Fooled by him so many many times liao..... don't said, brother brother never help hor. If next time he really get into trouble, then I treat it as a joke how???!!! Ever heard the story of "Lang Lai Le" before???

One question suddendly crossed my mind when I was baking "chocolate cake" in the toilet just now..... actually this question was asked by my friend/hairstylist recently when she realised that I'm jobless and looking for a job.... and that is, "What do I actually want in my life?"(Career wise) Actually this question have been bugging me for sometimes..... and shamefully, till now I still can't find the answer!!!! I only know that I've been into 2 failed business venture since ORD. In between this 2 failed business venture, I had took up quite a few of jobs which I quitted because I found that it's either I don't liked it or have no prospect in it.(You guys can said I'm fussy) I had only studied until sec 3 and it's hard to get those jobs which I would have prefer with this kind of qualification. So I had come to a conclusion that no matter what, one should have to complete his/her studies at least to a certain level and think carefully what they want to be when young, before they starts their working life. How I wished I had study more and not be so playful when I was younger~ Sighs..... What do I really want??? I really don't know leh~

~Tough Time Don't Last...Tough People Do~

2005-04-14T04:46:00.000-07:00

Wah..... just finished chatting with a long-lost ex-schoolmate, Janet~ It's been so long.... exactly 10 years since I left school liao~ After all these years, she's still the same. Not much difference... just that abit more bubbly leh~ Actually I used to have a crush on her during school days, in fact think that time we can be togther lor. But who ask me to choose "brotherhood" over her. Sighs... stupib me! What a waste~ Hahahaa... siao! Anyway, going to meet up next week :p

Got an "indecent proposal"(Don't anyhow think) from a girlfriend of mine, a few days ago! Shocked me for awhile, when I finally got what she means.... and I'm still considering it. But if you guys can't see me online this saturday night, then that means it's "on" liao lah! Sighs.....think not much program for this week. It's so boring staying at home and I'm still jobless. (Ya, I know I'm complaining again) Everyday it's either jogging or swimming but no working. Although it's healthy for my body to exercise but it's unhealthy for my pocket. Let see how long I can last~

Yipee! Can't wait to go sentosa later with "Buaya Eric" & "Act Cool Edwin". Always got siao idea, whenever I'm with "Delta Company"!!!! Hope later will be a crap day again! But hor!!!! I almost forgot that I need to go for interview this afternoon with "Ah Gal" leh!!! How huh???!! Aiyah.... don't know lah..... go sleep 1st~ Think I make my decision later. NitezzzZ.... everyone~

Just visited an interesting site, and ask how evil are you? They said, I'm 65% evil and I'm getting there! Although I haven't done all the damage I could do but I've done quite a bit. I'm just over the border into the Evil Zone. Go try it! http://www.hilowitz.com/john/home.html

~I know Love Is Blind.... But We're Living In The Real World~

2005-04-12T03:34:00.000-07:00

Nabei.... just fixed back my PC again~ At last can online again. Been searching around for someone to fixed my damn network problems. Thank Godness, found Ken who is a
professional in networking, finally free to spare some time to help me liao....

Yesterday while sleeping half-way, Anqi called from Texas again but this time is to screw me upside down for no apparent reason!!! And I didn't even have the chance to ask her properly when she hang up the phone!!!! Well.... it seems that Fucking Eric been using my "name" to disturbed her all along~ Always been his "shield", whenever he got into any trouble and he didn't even bother to tell me 1st, made me kanna screw by her for nothing!!!! Damn piss off~(Especially when I'm just half awake) Then just explained to Anqi what exactly had happened on MSN. Think that girl really mentally unstable. At first still can chat properly, but then suddenly she turned mad liao.... never in my whole life did I encounter any people who got a mood swing more severe then her!!!! Only got one word can describle her and that is...... SIAO!!! Sighs.... don't talk about her liao.... or I will vomit blood later!!!!

Went IMM to look for Shane today, coz finding some cables for my PC.... hahahahaa..... was so SHOCK to see her with her short hair!!! What happened to her hair???Don't know why she cut away her beautiful long hair for what???!!! And she looks like a primary school girl now!!! She said she cut it for a change..... but to me, the change is too dramatic lor..... can't stop laughing when I think about her hair :p Actually I also just got myself a new hair-style recently.... courtesy by Yoou~ Wah.... what can I said about that "Cool Lady"??? Getting prettier & prettier liao..... hahahahaa...... my saliva dripping none-stop when I saw her..... and she got herself a nice tanned too. So envious~

Hahahahaaa...... can you guys believe this???!!!! I just got a call from a young punk(Who claimed to be Anqi friend) while I'm here typing half-way!!! And he threatened me that if me & that FUCKING Eric don't stop disturbing "HIS FRIEND"!!!! He will teach us a lesson!!!!! Laugh me to death liao lah~ Never seen a more stupid guy than him before, frankly using his own no. to call me!!! So funny~ Come on, kiddy!!!! Give me your best shot!!! I'll be waiting for you, okay???!!!! Alrite, alrite.... got to hide under my blanket now~ NitezzZ...

~It Takes 42 Muscles In Your Face To Frown But It Only Takes 4 Muscles To Extend Your Arm And Slap That Mother Fucker~

2005-04-06T01:27:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!! I'm a HAPPY MAN TODAY!!! Finally got a new HP liao!!!! Actually thought of replacing my "Siao Hp" long ago... but never coz I'm jobless, and don't want to spend so much money.... Sighs... but no choice, still got to replaced it since my friends kept complaining that they can't hear me talking when they called!!! And I went Sentosa with "Buaya Eric" for sun tan today!!! Been waiting for this day for a long time liao.... coz it had been very cloudy & raining for the past few weeks.... but in the end we only managed to tan for awhile.... coz the sky started to get cloudy again...(But at least better than nothing lah) :p Can't stand that "Buaya".... It's always the same old story when we reached there..... kept looking around for girls to "sian"... and without fail, he "target" one babe within a short time and decided to go over but the girl seems to notice him from afar and walked away when that "Buaya" approache her! Laugh me to death! Hahahahaaa.... in the end, he "lan lan" walk back empty-handed~ ;p

We went to Penisular Plaza to alter some jeans after that.... Phew..... luckily we left Sentosa early coz It started torain heavily when we reached there. While waiting for the jeans to be ready, we went over to a friend shop selling shoes and chat with her. Sighs.... seems that we are going to Zouk this saturday(AGAIN???) Think I'm getting sick of Zouk liao... but bo bian leh... It's one of my buddy(Edwin) from Delta Company, Birthday~ How can I don't go, rite? It's already evening time when the jeans are ready.... and we decided to go over to Marina Square for our dinner but only a few shops are open only when we reached there, coz it's still under renovation...

Sighs.... suddendly realised that I had not been working for about 2 months liao... although I had been enjoying my life very much during these period, went clubbing, having nice food, sun-tan, swimming & Sentosa etc... but life's without a job still sucks lor... coz all "these leisure" above cost MONEY!!!! And especially when my money are running out soon!!!! Hahaahaaa... think I'm getting more & more slack as the days past by, really got to find a job soon.... but I had said it for many many times liao...but still never go and find~ Sighs... don't what am I thinking... I really don't know~

~I Don't Know The Way Of Success.... But I Know The Way Of Failure Is To Please Everyone~

2005-04-05T03:37:00.000-07:00

Chance upon a short but meaningful article written by "someone", and I find it just so true and thought of sharing it with you guys... hope you guys also agree with what is written in it....

~A Penny For Your Thought~

Why cry wasted tears over a relation that was never meant to be mine in the first place?
Human, even though are emotional creatures, after a period of time, everything will be just memories of what had taken place.
We should make ourself happy instead of lingering in this sorrowful event.
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love,
only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be
and that you have wasted so many days/months/years on someone who wasn't worth it.
If she isn't worth it now, she's not going to worth it a year or 10 years from now.
Then we just have to wake up from our dreams and let go.
If you love someone and could not tolerate his/her attitude,
you do your best to change your love ones. But If you can't change it,
maybe you can change your way of thinking and love the way he/she is.
And not by simply turn your back away from him/her and leave.
If that's the case, then it's not called "True Love" and there's no point for you to hold on.
Thinking back.... OR is it MAYBE it's all because of possession, and not because of the love that you guys are hanging on???

~Love May Be Gone... But Feeling Is Still There And Always Be There Till The Days I Can Really Forget~

2005-04-03T03:49:00.000-07:00

Hurray!!!!! At Last.... I'M BACK!!! Finally can online liao... I was waiting for Singnet to activate my internet for these past few days... and I FINALLY GOT IT!!!! Life without PC are just soooo miserable~Can't really imagine how I managed to survive during this period.... been watching vcd all along and it's sooo DAMN BORED lor~Blame it on my elder brother, who had decided to cancelled away his internet within such a short notice (Ya, it's under his name) coz he had just got a new PC in his new house. Anyway, I had just posted quite afew of new entries here, hahahaaa..... so "Kaypo Friends".... just slowly take your time and read through, ok? ;p

So much things had happened during these past few days.... and some of the "things" are inappropriateto mention here anymore coz "SOMEONE"(YES!!! IT'S YOU!!! DON"T LOOK AROUND!!!) been looking at my blog secretly!!!! Although my blog is open for anyone to view, BUT, I can tell "you" that, YOU'RE NOT WELCOME HERE!!!! (Ahem) SO PLEASE.... FUCK OFF!!!!!

Okay Okay, (Cool Down...) let's get back to what I wanna said... went to have breakfast with Alex, Ronyao & Weiwei today.At first, We had fried noodles at Holland Village...(recommend by Alex) but felt that we are not full so we went to Tanglin Halt to have curry chicken~ Hahahahaa.... think we are like hungry ghost lor... where got people have two rounds of breakfast one??? After that I faster rush home, cozI almost forgot today is my MUM's Birthday!!!! And she had told me that we will be going for lunch at 12pm! Happy Birthday to Mummy~ Happy Birthday to Mummy~ :p So have to rush back home after the breakfast. We went to have buffef at a well-known resturant at beach road, but the food SUCKS! BIG TIME~(Hmmm.... izzit because I had too much for breakfast this morning?) Then actually planning to go shopping with Mum, brother & his wife after that.... Hehehee.... thought can have shopping spree at the expense of Mum! But end up I never go coz Dad don't know the way home, so I had to guide him all the way back to JURONG!!! Sighs.... there goes my shopping spree.... :( (Phew... but at least he never nag at me.) YawnzzzZZ.... gonna sleep liao... been watching vcd everyday till wee morning~ But before I go, I had purposely save one columne below to some "MOTHER FUCKER"!!!! Anyway, nitezzzZ... EVERYONE!!!

To "some uninvited guest": If "YOU" don't cherish what "YOU" have now, and still wanna fool around.... well....then please go ahead.... BUT, don't blame me if I start to take back what you don't DESERVE right before "your" own eyes, AGAIN!!! I have ZERO TOLERENCE about "your doing"!!! I said it, and I WILL MEAN IT!!! So, please start behave "YOURSELF" & cherish what "you" have NOW!!!

~Every Step I Take, Every Move I Make, Every Single Day, Everytime I Pray, I Be Missing You~

2005-03-31T03:12:00.000-08:00

Hi, today I'm gonna let you guys see my "MOST POWERFUL WORDS" that I ever know of in my 27 years on this planet called Earth..... here it goes..... guess this is the last time that I'll blog in a while~(Hopefully not) So much things had happened in the past few days.... and currently I'm under tumultuous pressure to "Be A Saint"~

I don't like this kind of stress lor....... stress suppose to encourage work, ignites motivation, procreates determination, expands competiviveness, and everything else you can think of.... but come to think of it, there's also the ugly side of stress..... stress kills soul slaughters braincells, deflates egos, taints immaculate health records, murders minds and everything negative you can come up with.... just hope that I can take it all in my stride....... :(

I'm close to giving it all up with the numerous problem that I'm facing now..... but not to the extent of breaking down and of course, how can I break down, rite? NO! I WON'T!!! There's no pillar of support when I need one.... No, make that, there are no pillars of support.... you guys may ask, where are my sweetie & all my friends? Ya.... don't worry..... they all are still alive and kicking.... but I just don't want to bother them. Everyone got their own commitment and I feel that, sometimes I should learn how to be more independent.... and not relied on them too much.(I also don't know why I said all this when I know, all of them will be beside me when I need them~ OMG, please pardon me for my lameness, okay?)

Alrite..... that's all for now. Maybe my mind's are just running wild, and I sound so edgy today. Pardon me for these are just inccessant rantings..... still waiting for sweetie call coz she PROMISED that, she will call back but it's already so late.... I think she had already totally forgotten about me and fall asleep liao..... sighs.... hopefully tomorrow will be a "Sunny Day"...... been missing her alot~ NitezzzZ....

~People Know Me.... But Not Many Understand Me....~

2005-03-30T01:53:00.000-08:00

Sighs....... I had already changed my foul temper for a few years. I had learn not to
"snap" easily, unless provoke. Nowadays I will just keep quiet if I'm unhappy about something. And I never liked to quarrel.... I 've Never! But it seems like whenever we're good.....something comes along to destroy the peace.... there were periods of attempting to make everything all okay again... of not wanting to let the "Short but Memorable" past go to waste.... There were sweet moments, serenity....... when things felt just like before. But then the rots sets in.... and I will never understood why.....

Waves after waves, problems kept coming down hard on me..... is heaven playing
tricks on me? I don't know..... really hope god can give me an answer~

~Love Is Like A Bunch Of Loose Threads That Don't Really Tie.... And Just When You've Figured That Out..... You Die~

2005-03-29T03:29:00.000-08:00

Actually not going to online, coz nothing much to blog today. Went jogging this
evening and feeling very tired. In fact, I had already fall asleep after dinner. But don't know
why also... suddendly woke up. Seriously, I think im suffering from insomnia liao... (Anyone
know of any cure beside sleeping pills?) So here I am typing away like a zombie.

So bored... Sweetie very sick and are sleeping like a pig now. Went to clinic just
now.... and the doctor said, she's suffering from stomach infection and running a high fever. Poor
girl... my heart ache to see her in this state. But hor, sometimes I really can't stand her. Already
so feeling sick liao, still don't want to eat medicine. Had a hard time cajole her just now. Almost
spill out blood just now.(I know you don't like it and it will makes you feel drowsy but it's for
your own good mah.) and some more she want to go and work tomorrow!!! Siao!!! I'm gonna tie
her on the bed if she really go to work lor!!!

Okay okay.... that's all for now. If not, she's going to keep nagging me if she see what time I blog~ NitezzzZ.... everyone!
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To Somebody:
It doesn't matter if you don't want to treat us as your brothers.
For your info, we don't want lecture you.(And we did not) We're just concern about you. If it's
other people, we won't even care a damn about them! But really, I almost fell off my chair
when I heard the reason why you got sack.... it's such a LAME EXCUSE! Fancy you to have the
cheek to said, "I didn't blame anyone.... just myself. Who ask me to sleep early, said le right?
My body system got something wrong inside.... even my mum never lecture me so much when
I lost the job....etc" Come on.... you're old enough liao. The choice is your's to choose which path
you want to go. Sighs.... I also don't want to said so much lah, or else someone will "pek chek"
again. Hope you find a job soon. Good Luck!!!

~Love Doesn't Just Mean Becoming Someone Else "Perfect Person"..... It's About Finding Someone Who Helps You To Become The Best Person You Can Be~

2005-03-28T15:19:00.000-08:00

Just woke up..... early in the morning received a call from Anqi, she's calling from
Texas to chat again but hehehee.... I told her to call me back again later in the day, because I'm
still sleeping away. Sorry hor~ Poor girl... think she's very bored ba. No relatives and not much friends over there.... everyday can only work, work, work. No life at all~ Promise her that I will
go over to find her soon.(If only I got money lah) ;p But don't know when is it lah~ For the time
being, Qiqi you endure for awhile lor, bo bian~ Hahahahaa.....

I had so much drinks at Grace birthday last night. Burp~ But hor, heng ar.....
today never kanna hangover leh.*Touch Wood*(Sweetie even vomitted when she going reached
her house downstair last night, hahahaa..... ;p) We went to a pub called Party Doll along club
street, it's also the same pub where I just recently celebrated my birthday. It's actually quite a
nice place, very spacious, not so smoky unlike other pubs and most importantly the price are
also quite affordable.(Waitress are also very PRETTY & FRIENDLY!!!) Hahahaaa..... we had a
great time there! We played some "funny games", the loser have to drink up a glass filled up of martell and mixed with red wine!!! Hahahaa.... and all of us gang up and cheated "Ah Gal"....
poor him, in the end, kanna until he "knock out" lying on the sofa like a dead corpse for the rest
of the night while we're still playing away!!!! Hahahaa... and we also took some pictures of him
lying dead on the sofa(Hopefully can upload some pictures and let you guys see soon) Almost laughed me to death. Sweetie brought an ice cream cake from Swensen for Grace.(Nabei, how
come my birthday don't have cake huh?!) ;p But we used it to sabotage her. Even her husband, Alex also on stand our side!!! Haahahaa.....

Sweetie never work today, and I actually planning to go over to her house today....
but "something" crop up... sianz~ So I think I will just stay at home and rest today lah. Some
more going for jogging later. Sianz... don't know why I kept thinking today is sunday huh???
What is happening to me.....??? Why am I always dreaming for the past few days? Will sombody wake me up? Sighs.....

~I Wish I Could Believe In All I Do.... To Regain All I Lose.... To Close The Haunting Chapter Not With Grief But With A Smiles~

2005-03-27T02:18:00.000-08:00

Sighs..... actually feeling very happy this morning when Anqi called from Texas and
we chatted for quite awhile.... but my happiness are shortlive when she and sweetie was
agruing with each other through my tagboard.(which you guys won't see coz I "covered" it
with those smiley inside my tagboard) because sweetie not very happy when she realised that I
still haven sleep when she's already going for work!!! Wah.... it's no joke kanna stuck in between
these two girls when they're agruing with each other lor.... had a hard time cooling both of them
down... anyway, it's over~ (You Know I Love You Girls And I don't wish to see both of you to quarrel again, k?) Peace!!!!!

Just now had drinking session with my brothers at our usual hangout again. Actually
going to K-Box to finish up our balance after that, but in the end I never go coz wanna go home
early and keep sweetie company. All my friends said that I'm not like this before.... and I had
changed lor... coz drinking used to be my GREATEST LOVE!!! Hmm.... I myself also don't know
why leh~ Maybe It's the "Power Of Love" ba~ Hahahaa.... so mushy~ Even I can't stand myself
sometimes and let alone Alex! Nabei.... really cannot tahan him and his mouth really can't spare
people one lor.... he said that... his "HAIR"(Mind you, it's his "COCK HAIR" that he is refering
to, OK???!!!) will STRAIGHTEN whenever he hear me and sweetie are talking to each other!!
Hahaha... almost laughed me to death when I heard him said that!!!

Will be meeting sweetie later coz today is Grace birthday.... although we still don't
know where will we be going to celebrate later. But I promise that, it will be hell of a time!!! Hahhaaha... Beware Grace!!! I will let you have an unforgetable birthday!!! Hehehee..... ;p

~Love Always Begin With A Kiss.... Grow With A Smile.... And End With A Tear~

2005-03-26T02:31:00.000-08:00

Ho Ho Ho! So full now.... just reached home from a sumptous japanese buffet dinner
and everyone ate till wanna feels like vomitting(Grace hor?) ;p expect for Baoli. Hahaha... can't
stand that girl, kept eating mostly fruits instead of other dishs.... walau... if wanna have fruits,
just go market buy can liao mah~Really defeat the purpose to have buffet lor. Then something
"shocking" happened, when I was coming out of the toilet. Saw a unconscious girl lying on the
floor with a guy beside her and I immediately walked over trying to lend a helping hand.(Mai
siao siao, I learn first aid before hor) But NABEI.... the guy just wave me away!!! Chey!!! Really
"Hao Xin Mei Hao Pao" Pui! But beside that incident, overall had an enjoyable time lah. Actually
thought of going to fisherman village to "relax"(Lame excuse) after that, but in the end never
go liao because most of the guys still have to work tomorrow.

Think I'm dying from the lack of sleep.... and I don't know why I can still survive till
now! Can you guys imagine? Having just less than 7 hours of sleep for the past 2 days! I also
don't understand what I'm doing lor.... maybe I siao liao ba~ And when I was about to doze off
this morning, Grace called.... and asked me to get myself ready in 20mins coz she and Alex
coming over to fetch me to go for Bak Kut Teh. Very steam lor... when we reached the market.
Meet Rongyao and Weiwei there also.... coaz~ What is this??? Having white RICE early in the
morning for breakfast when I'm still half awake.... really lost all my appetite lor~

Hehehee.... really love sweetie more and more as the days goes by.... so guai today
coz she actually thought of going Chinablack to celebrate her friend birthday but end up never
go because she scare I will get angry. Actually It's for her own good lor.... coz yesterday drank
so much at MU liao.... kanna hangover also, some more still want to drink today. So I told her to
stay at home to rest and wait for my call when I reach home. God know what get into her? And
she really guai guai stay at home and wait for my call lor! Actually deep down in my heart.... I'm
feeling very happy & surprised lor. But hor, cannot too obvious lah.... If not, next time she don't
listen to me liao, how? ;p Okay... that's all for now, before she gets BIG HEADED if I said more
good things about her!!! Hahahaaa....

~When One Door Is Shut..... The Other Will Be Open For You~

2005-03-25T04:22:00.000-08:00

Yawnz...... just woke up~ Feeling so tired today.... sleep at 7 plus this morning and
woke up 2 hours later..... coz Sweetie wanted me to start looking for a job, but hahahhaa..... we
end up chatting for the whole day... and I still went for swimming in the evening! Think I'm
really push my endurance to the limit... finally cannot tahan liao and I knock out after dinner.
Sighs... received an SMS from Sweetie just now.... and told me that she's abit drunk liao... can't
stand that "xiao fan shu", always can't seems to take care of herself~ So here I am typing away
while waiting for her to reach safely and call me....

Today never hear Grace & Co mention about MU, so just act blurr lor.... hahahaha....
let see what's the program for tomorrow, hmmm..... meeting Alex tomorrow morning to
have Bak Kut Teh. That guy damn kiasu lor... he said, nowadays I'm so busy that he had to
make advance booking first, in order to have just a meal with ME! Hahahaa.... I'm so busy meh?
How come I don't think so? And I think tomorrow won't be going to Zouk also(Those who want
the free admission tickets for two can message me, k?) coz Weiwei called and said that she had
already made a reservation for all of us to have buffet dinner at a japanese restaurant!!!
Yummy~ And the best part is.... I DON'T NEED TO PAY A SINGLE CENTS LOR!!! Hahaha.....
believe that? She said it is to compensate me for not turning up for my birthday. Aiyah... paiseh
leh.... ;p I'm a very understanding person lah, how can I bear to let a pregant AUNTY suffocate
inside a pub, just because it's my birthday, rite? Hahahahaa....

Phew~ Finally I'm going out tomorrow to have some fresh air.... If not, I will suffer
from infantile autism soon, hahahaaa.... If I keep staying at home. Actually planning to go town
to meet someone this evening... but in the end, because of some "stupib idiot", then I never go
liao...sian1/2 lor~ Sighs..... It's been 1 week liao leh, still waiting for Ken wife to call me and let
me sign some document~ Nabei.... think I'm gonna suffer a "loss" lor, if I still don't get to sign
the papers..... okay lah... got to go~ That's all folks~ Can't wait for the Bak Kut Teh later~ ;p

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Chance upon an interesting quiz site, maybe you guys can have a try:
http://www.blogthings.com/whatagewillyoudiequiz/outcome.php

~All I Ask For Is To Live A Dream....The Dream I Once Lived~

2005-03-24T04:52:00.000-08:00

Think have to blog earlier today.... abit tired liao~ Coz went jogging for the past 3 days
and still sleep very late. Arrgghh.... never go swimming for a few days liao, everyday so cloudy.
How to tann??? Sighs... think I got mood swing leh~ One moment feeling very happy but the
other moment suddendly feels that I'm leading my life so aimlessly now.... I had lost all my
fighting spirit when it comes to work, ever since that stupib company winded up.... put in so
much effort into it and things still turn out this way. Nabei... this afternoon "sweety" brain-wash me some more..... think I'm not sad enough meh? But at least got knock some sense into me
lah... remember what you promise me tomorrow morning hor? Hahahaaa....

Am waiting for "Sweety" call now, coz she said wanna call me in a while.... but till now
still haven call. Don't know what the hell is she doing.... hahahhahaaa... been staying at home for
the past 3 days liao. Soooo soooo sianz.... think must go out soon. If not, I will go mad!!! Watched
America Idol just now. After that, chance upon an interesting website which tells you your
fortune of the year and it said me untill very good leh but how come I don't think so huh????
Sighs.... maybe "time not right" yet lor.....

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Walau........ can you imagine that??? I started to typed the above mentioned at 11plus!!!
It's been a few hours liao... but I'm still here typing????!!!! Also forget what I want to type
liao..... Alrite, maybe you guys will ask me.... why don't I just type and chat at the same time?
But the problem is..... I can't multi-task!!!! Coaz~ So here I am desperately trying to finish
up the rest and go to sleep. If not, my hp & house phone gonna ring non-stop!!!! Hahahahaa....

Anyway, was happily lying on my bed and chatting away with "Sweety" just now, and
she told me that tomorrow MU are cancelled!!! Hehehee.... don't know the reason why also....
coz she kept making me laugh and I forgot to ask her liao.... so that means maybe Friday night
can continue with my ZOUK??? ;p

Ok lah..... very tired liao.... my mind can't think of anything to write also. Got to sleep
now~ Guess that "Siao fan shu" are also sleeping like a pig now~ Hope she can wake up
tomorrow~ NitezzzZ.... Everybody!!!

~A Sad Thing About Life Is That When You Meet Someone Who Means A Lot To You Only To Find Out In The End That It Was Never Bound To Be And You Just Have To Let Go~

2005-03-22T03:56:00.000-08:00

Hmmm...... suddendly feeling quite happy with my life so far~ (apart from still been
jobless lah) Still no luck with my interviews leh.... thought those who are born in the year of
horse, this year will have a very good year??? But how come I don't think so? Anyway, got a
birthday "present" from "Miss I" when she's at my house last night, thanks alot "Deer"! Love it
very much! Hehehee... Actually hope she can take leave and accompany me for the whole day,
but she's too busy leh... and had to reached office at 9 plus in the morning. So send her took a
cab and went back to sleep..... then woke up in the afternoon, went down stairs and buy lunch...
sighs... it's so boring been jobless~ I'm still waiting for the PSA job that I had appiled.... and they
asked me to wait for two weeks, "not again....???"

Received my birthday celebration pictures from Eunice just now.... and "someone" comment that I look like a cooked lobster huh???!! Hahahahaa..... for your infomation hor, It's
not because of the drinks that I had on that day.... It's because of the trip to Siloso Beach last
week, okay? "Peijie" got it??!! Eunice & Grace jio this thursday go "MU" with their FEMALE
colleague!!!(Saliva dropping~) And said we will play "007" again!!! Hahahaaha.... but still
thinking whether want to go anot leh.... firstly, because last year I went there once, when my
cousins came back from US to visit us, and I find that it's too young, too bengs and they play
TECHNO!!( YUCKS!!) An OLD UNCLE like me cannot take it lah, sure will kanna heart-attack!
(But got girls leh...)Sighs..... secondly, It's because I got free admission tickets to Zouk the next
day on friday leh!!! Hmmm.... If I chiong for two days, I will be very tired and broke lor..... what
should I do leh? Sighs..... have to make a decision fast..... BIG HEADACHE~

"She" unblock me and we chat on MSN for quite a while just now.... and "she" even
said we can still be friends and "she" won't block me if we can chat nicely!(Lets see whether
"she" mean it anot lor) Must be surprise why "she's" willing to chat with me for so long, rite? Hahahaa.... It's because I chance upon "something" and know about "her secret" last night. And
that is.... I finally found out who is "her" bf liao~ Sighs... sometimes I'm wondering why am I so
CLEVER for what? Isn't it good to just "act blurr" and don't know about anything better?
Actually it's no surprise for me lor.... coz she always told me things about him when we're still
together and he even sometimes "on the way" and drived "her" to school before!!!(Please
lah... I had been through all, I also used to drived, okay? Which "tactics" have I never use
before to woo a girl even when my gf are inside the car together with me huh?) Sighs..... "she"
got that bit of cleverness in "her", but sometimes.... "she's" just sooo very NAIVE~ Although
"she" used to assured me that "she" got no feelings for him during that time... I still can "sense
something" lor.... but just that I kept quiet only. See! What I "predicted" are just so true.....
(I might as well go and be a fortune-teller better) "she" used to said that I'm not concern about
"her" and I only know how to said more bad things about "her" when "she's" feeling down but
did "she" ever think, why I did that to a women that I love so much??? I did it for "her" own
good.... I'm training "her" to be much more "street-wise", to be more aware of things happening
around "her"..... but seems that my method are wronged.....

By the way, dear friends~ I'm not hurt anymore hor.... I know what past already
past.... and I WON'T ask for a second chance coz "she" belongs to someone else now. Just wanna
said out my thoughts and feelings only. No big deal, okay? Don't worry about me and I'm VERY
FINE~

~Sometimes I Really Wish That I'm Stupib And Not Be So Clever~

2005-03-21T03:30:00.000-08:00

Wow....... finally I can take a rest liao~ Just reached home with "someone".... ;p
hehehee.... not having enough sleep for the past few days coz I've been celebrating my Birthday
for the last 3 DAYS with 3 difference groups of friends!!!! Hahahaha.... Siao rite??? All thanks
to a bunch of wonderful friends that I had. This morning also received calls and sms from some
friends to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!(Nabei.... disturb me from my sleep! Hehehee... just
kidding lah ;p) Thanks alot, you guys know who you are!!!

Hmm..... like what I said in my previous posting, friday night went Zouk with "Delta
Company".... last night went Maxwell market to have dinner with Alex, Boon, "Ah Gal", Grace
and her colleague then after that we went to a KTV pub called "Party Doll" or watever... can't
really remember the name... at Tanjong Pagar. What a small world~ Coincidentally a few junior
from my secondary school were there too when we reached. After we ordered our drinks we
played a very "malu game" Suggested by..... Eunice(Am I rite?) Makes everyone look so stupib!
Remember "BANG?!"So funny, hahahahaa... after that I played a few rounds of pool but never
even win a single match lor! How come huh? I'm a very good pool player, you know? (Lame~)
or maybe I'm just plain lousy~ Hahahahaaa..... but overall we had a great time! Although it's
just a simple celebration, but I'm already very contend. At least it's better than last year, where
I spend my birthday inside a reservist camp! Hahahahaa..... THANKS Alex!!! And Grace too!!!

Actually meeting "someone" else after the party last night.... in the end never meet.
Almost spoil my mood but luckily never~ So "Ah Gal" drive me home... sighs.... finally got to
meet "her" today. (And here "she" is sleeping beside me now) Hahahaaa.... We went to watch
"Hitch" this afternoon, it's quite funny lor, you guys can go watch it if you have time. After that,
had our dinner and go walk walk for awhile, feels very "relax & peaceful"..... been quite awhile
since I had this kind of feelings liao... can't really describle it.... maybe it's because I had finally
got over "That the other her" liao.... but I will never forget what "she" said to me coz it leave a
scars inside my heart.....

(Please stop making me laugh and call other people "bastard" when you're a "bitch"
yourself! Take a look at yourself in front of the mirror, what did you see? Actually you ain't that
great! ok? You're just a small kid... stop been so naive and mark my words..... you will fall hard
on your face, someday!!!)

~Lifes Is Like A Box Of Chocolates.... You'll Never Know What You Gonna Get~

2005-03-19T06:02:00.001-08:00

Finally!!!! Manage to get home liao.... nabei, got stuck outside my house for about
35mins!!!! Coz my brother thought I'm home liao and locked he door from inside... called him
on his hp for more than 20 over times to open the door for me but no reply~ Throw things
inside his window hoping that he can wake up but failed.... doesn't want to call my house phone
at first coz I don't want to wake up my dad. But after trying for so long.... I am left with no
choice.... but to called my house phone. Finally that PIG head brother of mine open the door for
me.....

And can you guys believe this??? I still got the strength to blog at this hour! Think
I'm a superman liao.... Hahaahaha.... went sun tanning at Sentosa Siloso Beach with Eric this
afternoon. Last time used to went there often, but ever since my car licence kanna revoked,
then I never go there liao.... the place are still so beautiful, except for a few routes that had
changed... can't really stand that "Buaya Eric"..... kept asking me to accompany him go sian
"bikini gals" with him, hahahaaa.... we stayed there till evening. After that, recommend him to
had our dinner at pasir panjang food centre. You guys must try the BBQ stingray's there, it's
one of the BEST in SINGAPORE!!!!(If not, the best) Yummy~ Then come up my house and
rest for awhile, feel so bored, then we decided to go Zouk to have an early celebration for my
BIRTHDAY!!! So accompany him go to his house and change and called Edwin to meet us there.
Nabei.... while I'm waiting for Eric to change at his house, his stupib dog jump on me and bite
my thumb! Then I bo bian.... kick that mad dog once! Natural reaction~ (I really love dogs but
don't blame me, coz it's really a MAD DOG!!!!) Hahahahaaa.....

Sighs..... it's damn fucking packed at Zouk today~ Don't know why.... suddenly getting sick of going to Zouk liao.... or is it because we're just feeling too tired from the Sentosa
trip? Saw Annie( Real sister of "Ah Girl", previously from channel U) there.... so paiseh~
Shocked me when she suddendly tap my shoulder from behind. Long time never let her cut my
hair liao..... hehehee... AND SHE SAID I HAD SLIM DOWN LIAO!!!! So happy!!! ;p Anyway,
saw a lot of TCS artise there.... Adam Cheng, Fiona Xie(Yucks!!! Can't stand her "cuteness")
etc... Stay at Zouk till 2plus then I accompany Eric go Boat Quay to meet his "blind date", from
friendster! Hahahahaa..... so funny. About that girl, I got no comments. Normal looking lor.... we
had some drinks with her at a pub where she works. After that went for supper together after
she knock off..... so high liao when I reached home~

Thats all folks.... the sun coming out soon.... better go and sleep fast~ Of else I will
vanish into the thin air if the sun shines on me~ Hahahaaa.... Good NitezzzZ~

~The Greatest Enemy Of Darkness Is..... Love~

2005-03-17T05:12:00.000-08:00

Yawnz.... finally finished bathing, chatted with Irene for so long.... till my ear hurts like
hell now!!! Hahahahaa..... but fun lah~ This girl really SIAO so I always call her "siao cha
bo", can really makes me laugh like mad sia~ So long never laugh until so happy liao. Thanks
"Deer"!!!! Hahahahaa.....

Went drinking with Hong & Ken again.... actually wanna go jogging this evening but last minute they book out from their reservist and called me, so cancelled my jogging plan lor.
Hehehee...(Anyway, yesterday also got jog mah ;p) Nabei..... don't know why people reservist
and I also reservist.... but WHY MY RESERVIST DAMN FUCKING SIONG ONE????!!!! AND
WHY MY GUN ARE DAMN FUCKING BIG THAN OTHERS????!!! The thought of "sandbags"
makes my hair stand! Walau... still got 10 more years to go... die liao lah~ It's been 2 months
since I finished mine for this year liao.... though can relax abit, but suay suay kanna
"mobilzation" on this july again!!! FUCK!!!! If you guys saw the "codenames" of "Triple Blade"
or "Spring Season" on TV, please call me hor.

Saw Elton just now.... seems that his condition still not getting better. Poor thing.... he
went to see many doctors including, malay tradtional massage, chinese physician, and even
went to temple to pray!!! But all also no use.... hope that he'll be fine soon...

Anyway, got to sleep liao... need to settle some "important stuff" tomorrow..... wish
me good luck~ Good Night, everyone!!!

~The Best Way To Cure Heartbreak.... Is To Find Another~

2005-03-16T02:20:00.000-08:00

What I "fear" most for this past 3 months finally arrived.... all my hopes are gone.... really
gone!!!!! I almost fainted when I heard the "news" from "her"........ Im sad, really sad.... no
words can really describle my feeling now.... we used to be sooooo close but now? Sighs.... "she"
really don't give a damn about anything between us.... forget it.... no matter how hard I tried,
she also won't care now.... I always been a fighter & won't give up easily.... but this time round,
I'm really tired liao... really..... since "she" can totally forget about everything..... there's also
nothing much I can said.....

"She" belongs to someone else now.... although I'm so damn sad..... but go ahead, my
dear.... If you're mine, you will come back to me again.... there's no point forcing... but forget it
lah... I'm really very exhausted.... It's really been one of the lowest point in my life...

Just before I let you go & from the bottom of my heart........ I just hope that we can still be
friend.... and "he" will treat you much more better than I do.... I really do hope so. If not, I'm
gonna break his leg!!!! I hope that you will find the happiness that you long for.... please take
good care, my dear.... I REALLY MISS YOU ALOT~

~Bye, My Dear....Hope You Stay Happy Always~

2005-03-14T20:12:00.000-08:00

Never blog for a few days liao.... all because of a "stupib, spoilbrat & unreasonable
BITCH"!!! Who asked me to trusted her so much? She actually took my password and deleted
my blog away! Luckily I got save my template in my pc.... if not, everything will be gone. But I
still have to change a new blog address.... F***!!!

Saturday night got a surprise.... got a girl actually sleeping beside me!!! It been "so
long" since a girl last sleep beside me liao. But it's my little cousin lah... hahahahaa.... I know im
lame~ But she also a girl what??? Just that she's a little girl~ Heheheee... It's her school
holidays and she came over to stay and insist on sleeping with me but poor me.... I can't really
sleep for the whole night lor.... coz whenever i'm about to doze off she will suddenly kick my
butt or elbow me in her sleep! In the end, due to the lack of "peacefulness" for my sleep.... I wake up so early that day to have my breakfast on my own~ Sighs....maybe small kids are like
that lah~

Seems that Singapore Turf Club really decided not to employ me liao.... sighs..... it's
exactly 1 week le, but still no phone call from them.... can forget it.... yesterday, went drinking
with all my brothers!(Full Strength leh) Wow.... really been some times that we gathered
together! So happy to see them again! Brings back memories of our wildful days... Hahahahaa....
drink until very very high but at least last night I never vomit :p Then chatted with Irene for a
while when I reached home.... (I also can't remember what I said to her, hopefully I never talk
rubbish, hahahaaaa....)

This few days been trying to solve "her" problems.... but I failed.... sighs.... but I will
still try my best. Hope "she" don't blame me and "she's" still doing fine... even though i'm
outside with my friends sometimes..... but I still think about "her"..... really miss "her" alot alot
alot.....

~Love Is Like Staying On A Wet Cement.... The Longer You Stay.... The Harder Is To Leave.... And You Can Never Leave Without Leaving Your Marks Behind~

2005-03-12T16:49:00.000-08:00

Arrggghhhhh........ never receive any call from Singapore Turf Club today!!! All my dreams
are dashed now.... I'm a "Dead Duck"!!!(My "Ti Gong" really ignore my prayer) What am I
suppose to do now? I really don't know leh... makes me regretted my decision to turn down Ah
Kiong offer... think have to start planning all over again liao... sighs... so disappointed*

Very tired.... fall asleep after my dinner just now. Actually Rongyao asked me to go for
dinner today but I decline because of going to jog....(Think the sun gonna rise from the north!!!) My stamina also improve alot liao.... coz the distant getting longer and longer.( So proud of
myself) Hopefully all my hard work would not go down the drain and I would not give up half-
way.

Been thinking very hard of a solution to "solve her problem"(When I also need people to
help me) by this weekend..... should I go back to my "old ways"??? I'm still undecide yet....
really in a fix now..... actually I got an "idea"... but all my friends said that I'm mad~ So many
question marks on my mind now.... really wanted to helped and don't want to see "her" suffer
because of my problems, but what can I really do when I can't even look after myself now???
Some of my "friends" even asked me to ignore "her"..... asking why should I care, when "she"
don't even give a damn about me??? I never give them any reply and just smiled.... but deep in
my heart, I know the reasons.....

.....It's because I OWN "HER" alot, "she's" a very NICE GIRL & I really LOVE "HER"~

~True Love Is Like A Ghost.... Many Have Thought About It.... But There's Only A Few Who Have Really Seen It~

2005-03-11T03:42:00.000-08:00

Just reached home.... went dinner and drinking with Ken and Hong just now. Saw
some posting on "her" blog when I switch on my pc and I sms "her" straight away.... its been
hard on "her", really....... In order to helped me when we're together, she sacrificed alot.... and I
REALLY feels very guilty to see "her" in this state.(And after we broke off, I told myself that don't ever let me know or hear anyone making "her" sad again..if not, im gonna break their
legs!!!) It's all because of me.... sighs.... I'm so SHOCKED & HAPPY, when I saw "her" appeared online on my MSN just now!!!!! It been sooooooo long since I last saw "her" online liao!!! I
thought "she" finally forgive me liao and willing to chat with me again. But.... sighs.... "she" just
online for about 15secs and block me again... very sad... REAL SAD~

Anyway..... so surprised to received a message from a very long time "friend" today.
How times pass.... it's been more than 12 years ago.... although she's busy flying all over the
world and we seldom met, only keep in contact through email now.... she still remember to wish
me happy birthday! So touched.... (Though still got 9 more days lah) Hahahahaa....

Today went swimming again.... but don't seems to get any darker leh.... maybe it's
because of the sun lah... so cloudy, how to tan??? Tomorrow is friday liao... but still no news
from Singapore Turf Club!!!! Don't tell me that I'm not selected??? I'm really a "Dead Duck" if
I still never receive any calls from them tomorrow lor.... coz I rejected too many job offer just to
wait for their second call liao..... sighs...... got to sleep lah... Tata~

("Dear Ti Gong" please pray that I will receive a call from Singapore Turf Club when I wake up
tomorrow)

~We Came To This World Not By Finding Someone Perfect To Love.... But To Learn How To Love An Imperfect Person Perfectly~

2005-03-08T07:56:00.000-08:00

Just woke up not long ago.... never blog yesterday coz drunk liao(again~) Went to
Singapore Turf Club for interview yesterday and they said they will give me a call by this week,
if i'm selected.(Prayin hard~) After interview, I went swimming at Jurong East Swimming
Complex which is very near my house. Finally got to go swimming liao and get myself a good
tanned......... coz it been raining recently and very cloudy. Think my stamina improve liao.....
I can swim more than 10 laps now, ok??!!! Compare to the 1 lap when I first started, Hahahaa....
Guess what? After that I went to jog too!!!! Wow~ Scary, rite? Don't know why also... maybe
got "form" lor and now my whole body ACHED like hell!!! Actually been trying to quit smoking
("she" hate me smoke) coz the price are getting more and more ridiculous!!!! What is this, a
packet of cirgrettes cost $11 bucks???!!! Might as well ask a certain "Mr H. L. Lee" go and rob!!!
But really..... quit smoking is not a simple task~

Last night had drinking session with ken, his wife & hong again.... don't know what got
into me recently, seems to get drunk easily..... (At least I don't do "stupib things" when I'm
drunk now) By the time I got home it's 1.30 a.m, can consider it's very for me early liao and I
straight away went to bathe and sleep le.... and it's a "new record" that I slept soooo early,
maybe it's due to the tedious exercise that I had earlier...... If not, the pigs will know how to
climb the trees lor...... If I sleep earlier than 2 a.m!!!!

Would like to thank a few friends here.... for their "support"; Candy- Though I made
you angry just now(Did I really???) regarding the "pics" that you send me. STill, thanks for
your "advice" to me yesterday..... but it's always easier said than done. Just hope that time will
prove everything. Joanathan- Wah..... What can I said about this Bro of mine???? He actually go
all the way to introduce his ex gf sister to me and gave that girl my no. and asked her to call
me!!!! Bro!!! you want to scare me to DEATH ah.... and lastly, Eric- this Bro know me the best,
had been accompany me all this while, when i'm feeling down.... be it at Zouk or anywhere.
Everyday kept calling me a few times to see whether I'm alrite anot....(Guys....THANK YOU all
for all your help.... I do appreciate it)

~Walking Away Isn't The Hardest Part..... It's knowing You Won't Come Running After Me, That Hurt The Most~

2005-03-07T02:56:00.000-08:00

Went orchard today with Eric.... and got some clothes. What can I said about this Bro
of mine.... he must have sense that I've been feeling very down lately and thats why nowadays
he keep accompany me. I really do appreciate that.... but sometimes, I rather be alone.....
Anyway, been quite awhile since I last go orchard. Everywhere I went, memories of
"her" constantly surface on my mind.... whether its Far East, Taka, Tangs, Wisma, Sasa
or Hereen.... you name it~ Really miss those moments..... that we shared~

Very shocked when Eric told me that he called "her" yesterday!!! (Actually gave him "her" no. when "we're" still together... coz in case I got into any "trouble" *pui*, he can help me
call "her".....) And he only told me that after he put down the phone with her"!!!! Till now
"she's" still very angry with me.... sighs.... don't really know when "she" will forgive me..... I
knew I had done "some stupib things" that makes "her" even hate me after we broke off.... but
what done had already been done... what can I do???!!!! All I can said is 999999999...... times of
SORRY!!!!! But does it mean anything to "her"? I really don't know~ "She" said, "she" will call
me in about two weeks time.... really hope that she will keep "her" promise.... coz I miss "her"
very badly.........

Sighs........ tomorrow morning still have to go Singapore Turf Club for interview.....
though it's a job which I may have to sacrifice my weekends but I still hope can get it. Actually,
been trying to find a stable job and give "her" a good life, ever since "that stupib company"
winded up. But no chance now..... Speaking of this company..... I have been thinking, the main
reason that "we" broke up was because of this stupib company! In the first place, if this
company doesn't have any problems during that time.... I would not have neglect "her" at all!!!
And I think even till now, we will STILL be so very happily together!!! Sighs.....

Don't really know "you" will see my blog anot..... but I still have this to said to you:
"Girl", maybe "you" tried not to think about me, keep yourself occupied from
your work, be with all your friends and are enjoying now. But I will NEVER forget how "YOU"
HELPED and STAND BY ME through those difficult periods...... "you've" always be there for
me through good and bad times.... been giving me your everlasting love..... I never thought of
hurting you all along(that's why I had "hurted" myself so badly now) and I once promise myself
that I won't let anyone bullies "you" and ever make "you" cry coz it hurts me whenever I saw
"you" cried.... I really hope that "you" will give me a second chance to return my love back to
YOU~ Back to the times we use to be~

~You Are My Sunshine.... My Only Sunshine~

2005-03-05T05:46:00.000-08:00

Just back from home... went drinking with my brother just now........ actually should
go Zouk today with Eric's & gang.... but I never go coz I sms "her" yesterday night and today
afternoon... telling "her" that I'll be calling "her" today..... Thought that after so long.... we can
have a proper chat but sighs..... when I called "her", "she" answered the call(I'm shaking and
don't know what to said!!!) BUT "she" won't even talk to me and hang up after 5 secs!!!! I'm
feeling so miserable now.......... Don't really know what should I do.... friends out there!!!! Can
teach me what should I do???? I already did my best..... but........ sighs....... saw "her" posting
last night, and It's makes me even more miserable!!!! All the things "she" wrote are just
soooooo TRUE!!!!(Feeling soooooo.... remorseful!!!)

"Girl".... I had already done my BEST to win "you" back..... what more do you want from
me...???? I'm really hurt by those posting that you had wrote on your blog........ I'm really
exhausted..... can't really describle those feelings.... please stop toturing me, will you? I just
wanna have some words with you.... and If you ever think that my "words" are unreasonable...
Then we will call it quits..... and I won't ever call you again....

I don't ask for much.... just want you to hear my part of explanation~ That's all I can ask
from you......

~Love Hurts........... It really hurts~

2005-03-04T03:13:00.000-08:00

Sighs...... feeling very sick now. *sniff* *sniff* Think I had catch a cold and having slightfever now..... I'm sneezing away while I'm typing these..... doing nothing for the whole day, justrot at home.... today also never go for the "second interview", decided to give it a miss at thelast moment, when I woke up this morning. (There goes my oversea job and my "ang moh" gf.....) Anyway, going toSingapore Turf Club for interview on next monday..... hopefully can get the job coz somehow Igot a weird feeling that I will stay at this job for a long long time.... If I'm selected lah.... If..... ormaybe it's because I'm born in the year of horse and I also like horse alot....Hahahaha..... lame~Don't what I'm talking about also..... maybe the flu bug are slowly getting up to my brain liao....Suddendly got an urge to give "her" a call..... been wondering how is "she" getting on....still miss "her" alot after all these while.... miss "her" voice too.... but so what If I call??? I bet"she" won't even pick up my call.... let alone chat with me! Sighs..... does every couplesreally need to break off all ties with each others when they broke off and cannot be friendsanymore? Why can't they chat, like ever before? I really hope to know the answer.... Doesanyone know? okay lah.... got to go sleep liao... Feeling very sick now... Hope to dream of "her"tonight.... Tata~
~We Are Like A Jigsaw Puzzle..... Missing A Piece..... And Without That Piece..... We Can Never Be Put Back Together As One~

2005-03-03T15:48:00.000-08:00

Yawnz~ Feeling abit tired..... went for interview yesterday but still don't know whether
can get it anot. Anyway, going for second interview tomorrow. Don't know still want to go anot
leh, coz I find that the company ways of doing their business abit "fishy", sighs..... really don't
know how to explain it lah... (Think my hope of going for oversea assignment are gone) Today
at least not bad, received a lot of calls to ask me go for interview. One of the calls is from
Singapore Turf Club, actually I email my resume about 2 weeks ago.... thought they had
already forgotten about me, but??? Hehehee.... hopefully I can fix an appointment with them
and go for my interview by this week!!!! ;p

Not been sleeping well for the past few day. Don't know why also.... Sighs.... been
raining non-stop for the past few days, can't go for my tanning leh. Arggghh........ hopefully
tomorrow is a SUNNY DAY!!!!

(To "SOME MOTHER FUCKER", you know who you are. Hope you read this!!!! Don't
send me files that contain virus again!!!! I WILL REALLY BASH YOU UP, If you don't heed
my warning!!!! PLS don't take my kindess for granted)

~Trying To Forget Someone You Love Is Like Trying To Remember Someone You Never Met~

2005-02-21T02:22:00.000-08:00

Yawnz~ Sooo tired... just finished watching "Black Hawk Down". It's such a GOOD
MOVIE!!! What a tiring day... can you imagine? Sleep at 7plus in the morning, and woke up at
9.15 a.m. Actually waited for "someone" last night, nabei... after waiting for a few hours... "She"
sms and told me that she won't be home so early... and ask me go and sleep 1st lor...*FOOK*!!!

Anyway, went to bedok to help my cousin to shift house today... so many things to
carry lor! Almost fainted.... when I saw so many pairs of shoes and belongings! Most of them
belongs to my Aunty Jenny, she's such a shopping Freak!!! If I'm her husband, I'll scold her like
a mad dog lor!!! Coz she always brought alot of things without using it!!(What a waste of money)
Finally finished moving those stuffs at about 5plus... rest awhile, then we went to Toa Payoh
and had our dinner. Toa Payoh is like a "Sad Place" for me.... always think of the "past" when
I'm there....(Where we had our dinner there, having KFC & sending "her" home by bus at the
interchange. etc... thiugh It's just a little things but It mean sooo sooo much to me!!!) Sighs....

Aiyah! Must stop brooding over spilled milk lah!!! Pui!!! Hahahahahaa...okie okie.....
my eyes are closing soon & tomorrow still have to wake up early. Sianz~

~Human Are Like Snowflakes.... Each Unique In Their Own Way~

2005-02-20T01:19:00.000-08:00

What is love??? Sighs... don;t know why recently, so many friends around me got
relationship problems??? 1st ME!!! Then my bro, Jonathan... then another bro, Eric... then
Chanel... then now, Candy!!! Hey!!! What's happening manz???!! I thought "Love" suppose to be
sweet & wonderful? But why everyone feeling so SAD & HURT??? Can anyone give me an
answer??? Lame~

Been wondering how is Chanel feeling now... she's the one whom I worried most...
always do those "stupib things", hehehee...(I mean last time lah... after "James") ;p Anyway,
really hope that she's fine...

Going to bedok reservoir tomorrow (I mean later) to help my cousin shift house. He
called me just now, and I agreed without second thought, sighs... I'm so tired... but bo bian... he's
my closest cousin and I can't turn him down. Actually It's my old office... got so many memories
there... but too bad, going to sell to others le...

~Exactly One More Month To My Birthday~

2005-02-19T23:38:00.000-08:00

Why am I doing something that I don't want to do? Why do I still want you?
Why am I still waiting messages from you? Why am I still missing you?
Why am I still dreaming of you? Why am I still here writting and thinking about you?

I feel so bad deep in my heart, like the shadow has fallen down on me, I cannot see
the bright spot in my life, I'm so tired of loving and I don't wanna be. Being far from you tears
me inside... and the pain is too hard to bear.... I wish you could hold me in your arms, With your
sweet kisses show me that you care... every breath I take, torture I receive, It reminds me that
all of this is so real... and while the tears are rolling down my face... I know you don't love me
anymore nor ever will... coz I had hurt you so deeply...."Deardear", It's so damn hard to be
alone, It hurts me so much to feel this way, I keep on hoping that you love me again and that
you are just too afraid to say.

With broken heart, I'm trying to go on, I'll keep on living, but my soul is dead. Your
smile will remain the part of me and your eyes will always make me sad! Remember "What
Happened" on 31th dec 2004? But still I LOVE YOU. My heart has truly broken Into pieces
unfixable... I want you to know how much I LOVE YOU... but won't have the chance to said it
anymore... I remember when we used to touch the feeling that ran through my very veins... But
now my heart is broken... I can't breath I can't see... All I want is you to come back to me... You
are my life my mind and my very soul and right now I do anything to show you how much I
want you.

But I can't find my way and you haven't come to find me.But I will wait untill that day
where you find me and my love again Find your way my love, because my heart is breaking....

~Love Hurts~

2005-02-18T20:19:00.000-08:00

Wow~ Finally got a blog of my own! Hahahaaa...(Although I know I'm an OLD MAN
now) Would like to Thank a friend here... CANDY!!! Without you, there will be no b;og! Ya, I
know I'm demanding, Heehee... but anyway, thanks for yr help!!! ;p Actually, the purpose of me
doing this blog thing is because I got alots of things to said to "someone".... but I know, "she" will
not listen to me anymore... so here I am(An Old Man) penning down all my "thoughts &
feelings" through this blog thing.... hope it can cure the hurts & pains that I've been through for
the past one month plus.... that's all for now.....~Tata~

~I Never Hope To Be The First Place In Your Heart.... But I Wish To Be The Last Man
In Your Life~